'CeLeste's Paradise'. <3

Tuesday, September 30, 2008 @12:27 PM

Hmms. ARG~! saw that? someone come and find me during work ytd and pass me THIS! i was like 'what, serious mah?' haha. but seriously, that brighten up my day thou my day gonna end soon, that is e highlight of e day~! FYI, if u dono what thats, let me tell u, actually i dono what that too x: i only know e head will shake, and when i ask HKitty a question like "is Kim short?" she shake 'NO', mean im not short. so happy, 1st time someone say im not short ehh. but really Thanks a millions to YOU! Thanks for e '2nd Birdae Present' that u gave! ARG~! *I LOVE YOU to bits! <3

*Ytd, dreamt of sth and it goes like this: "meimei, PaPa has brought sth for us. come and take. and its was a 'small cake'. and when i eat it, woah~ so sweet so nice. a beautiful cake i ever had thou its not my birdae or anything but my one and only cake i ever receive from him." and sud 'Hallelujah... i'll Bless e Lord will all my Soul.....' ARG~! Alram in my HP, irritating, there spoilt my dreams. i was sad but yet, happy. wondering will that be real? tell me its not a dreams please. tell me its real. i hope it real.

@1:09 AM

Hmms...

Can someone wake me up when '31 Sep' has ended?

Saturday, September 27, 2008 @12:49 AM

FEELINGS:

Hmms. What is "Feelings"? no one will ever know how another person Feel? Yes, i'll be able to feel u physically by touching e hands. but there's another "Feelings" which no one will ever know. 'Heart'. Don tell me u know how i feel when u doesnt even go thru it. or rather u didnt even hear what i wanna say. and another "Feelings" which is 'Falling in Love' w e person u Like. somehow u got e "feelings" of that person. There're so many "Feelings". But to me, "Feelings" are just like Growing in e Dark. no one will ever know how u feel only when e light is off, e light of e Feelings is out. Be it, sadness, discouragement, disppointment etc, it'll be seen after e light is off. but i wanna to know one thing, i really wanna ask 'DO YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL?' Yes, who doesnt want increase? Yes, who doesnt want Breakthru? Yes, who doesnt want to be w their Loves one? Yes, who doesnt want to get attached? Yes, who doesnt want to have a JOYFUL life? But 'DO U KNOW?'. and all i know is, This Heart of mine has grow 'Cold, Hard, Breaks'. scold disciple angry nag or anything u want cos i gonna pretend nth has happen. im sorry for not being a good ones. im sorry for doing a lousy job. im sorry for e growth. im sorry that im not a Blessing to u. im sorry that i let u down. im sorry u gonna do everything by urself. im sorry....

*i just wanna walk away silently. no returns. a mixture of feelings. FYI: 'u' doesnt referring to one person only neither do e things i said doesnt referring to one thing only. PS: pls believe me again that im really alrights. and of cos im HAPPY! Yes, i am.

@12:24 AM

Hmms. Few Reasons why Blog are not updated:

~Got e Disease of 'Laziness' from some of em.

~Busy and yet not Busy at e same time.

~Time is running.

~Tired after one whole day.

~As it's a Negative Post. so doesnt wan ppl to questioned.

~So everyone will think Kim is "ALRIGHTS".

~Did Blog but its in my 'secret' blog.

*P.S: Pls Believe im alrights. yes, i am.

Sunday, September 21, 2008 @11:39 PM

Hmms. BEACH~!
is e place where i hunting to go right now.
is a place where its so "Romantic" for couples.
is a place where it is so beautiful w it beautiful skies.
is a place where i can only hear e sea and wind sound.
is a place where i can SHOUT all my Troubles, Stress and Sadness.
is a place where i can let e sea take away all my "T.S.S"
will it be helpful?
never try it before.
so Yea, im gg on WED.
Beach, Here i come!
BUT He~llo! FYI, im not gg w a GUY.
but of cos, im straight. -.-

Tuesday, September 16, 2008 @2:10 PM

Hmms. ARG~! They've never never fail me to smile. (: Look at how cute they are. arent they cute? this everyone cant deny de. Yea? feel so comfortable when i hug em. sometime will just bomb to my bed and hug em when im tired and woah~! Loves em for what they are. and they got e tears of mine. they bath thru my tears?? sound funny but its alrights. they know my every secret. wanna know my secret mah. find em, and they'll tell u. wahahaha! and so sad, my bed is too 'big' for all of em to sleep. so e 2 bigs one gonna sleep on e chair. ): but of cos when i wake up den they sleep on my bed. so im trying not to receive anymore le if not i really gonna sleep at e floor. :x but i still LOVES em. one thing about em, THEY ARE CUTE! and they make me smile. (:

Hmms. and Yea!! another one. that is none other den my SPORE FLYER. Its never fail me to smile wheneva i saw. sometime after work was tired but pass by it, and woah~! smile came out. somehow someday, i wish i'll be able to be up there w my LOVES one. so Yea, this is e Power of my BAOBEIs and SPORE FLYER that make me smile. (: and of cos, e 'Love of my Daddy God' make me smile. e smile of u make me smile. e concern of u make me smile. (:

so frens, *what are e things that make u smile, think of it and sadness will gone.*

Saturday, September 13, 2008 @2:01 AM

Hmms. was at my ah ma house that day and randomly saw sth. quite funny. look at it, haha. can laugh till like no one business. and my lil cousin was like saying, 'u lai de meh?' and my ah ma was saying, 'last time u and ah peng so CUTE de'. and i was like. yea lor. so cute can. look at my bro face. man~! e blur look. haha. and compare to last time, Grown up. and he's FAT :x we've seriously grow up from e kids to a sort of adult obviously. haha! =D so yea, show u some of e fotos. laughing all e way of his blur look. =D

and Yea. Thats my Bro and of cos ME! (: alot of diff yea?

and Yea, Finally. its Me, Myself and I! looking at e changes, physically. from a kids to a gal now. times has really change. fast fast. 18th years le. thinking and looking back, happy and sad. sad are gone foreva. what am i looking forward is e thing that im gg thru right now. asin e thing that im doing right now. looking forward to certain breakthrus. and e thing ard me. looking at e smile of me from e past, it make me smile. and of cos no one will capture their sadness as their memories cos it will somehow bring back their sadness. and yea. i do not know what will happen tmr but just live as i could. be a gal that is really Cheerful in e outside and of cos inside and will bring Joy to e ppl ard her. that all i wish for.

Friday, September 12, 2008 @12:22 PM

A Cold Morning and A Lovely Morning.

A Letter to him:

I Miss You! thou i saw u just a few days ago but im alrdy start missing u le. how i wish u are here now to piggyback me down e hill, bring me to KFC to buy wages, buy ur fav durians, bring me ard e world. i miss those days. really. e moment i woke up, e image of ur face is flashing in my mind. e smile of u, e always snatching ur head de u, and e becoming fat de u. u kept telling me 'im fat alrdy hor'. Yes, u are but to me u're always u. But i thank God that u're fine. there's a place where u can truthly stay. know u got no choice in doing e things and its boring but u must JIAYOU. 4years more. i wonder when is e next time i'll be seeing u. 1 year later, 2 years later or even 4 years later? my tears break e moment i saw u but i hold it back, i wanna tell u alot of things but i doesnt want u to worried. its only when i left u, tears couldnt stop even when there're stranger ard me in e bus. whocaniturnto? turn to left and right but no one. all alone in a Lost world. and Daddy God i pray that You will sent e Angels to surround him and Protect him. Pls take cares and most of all, i wanna say

'I LOVE YOU'. <3

*Who will I run to

Who will I turn to

Now that you left me behind

Who will dry my tears

When I cry

Who will I run to

Who will I turn to

Now that you’re not here

In my life

Who will be there for me

Who’s gonna rescue me

Who’s gonna share my dreams

Who’s gonna mend this broken heart

Thursday, September 11, 2008 @11:16 PM

Hmms. ARG~~~!!!!! =D i shout not cos of anything. cos finally, im a 'Free-Bird' le. can fly alrdy, got wings but its fake wings. cos exam finally finish. stress stress go away don eva come again. e 1st term has gone, but sad to say. there're still 2nd, 3rd and 4th. =.= and even more stressed. i believe cos got dono what marketing, entreprenuer and blahblah. still got 3 more terms to struggle w. but its alrights. i'll be able to pull thru de!

Hmms. anw. yea. as i mentioned, i've just finish my papers. 2 stressed papers. MON had my BFD and really can fainted when i study that. loads of theory and i dislike it. memorising hasnt been good in my mind cos i got CeLeste's STM. :x so im sorry if i forget who u are. haha. no ar. kidding. but quite sad cos think lose quite a num of marks but its alright, no As, Bs also can. (: den TUES is my AFD and yea. actually was quite happy, cos i 'tot' i found e ans of BANK REC but in e end, cheat my feeling. come out of e exam hall and i realise arg~~~! and its so craps, act clever de me cos i changed e whole num upside down. and FYI, e ans should be tally if not tally means wrong. so ya. arg~! quite sad. but nvm. (: pass alrdy, fly away le. no longer AFD or BFD de. YES~! =D

Hmms. and yea lor. im proud of myself today cos i ate one meal only. ate Foldover, just in case u dono what's that, its from mac. and from 12 plus ate till now. not really hungry and my colleague say im not 'human'. but im really not hungry. and thank God cos can save my money also. but back home, ate 'malay carrot cake'. =.= got prawn. vomit. sensitive to seafood thats why. and no mood to eat also. and also, thank God for protection also. nearly fall from a super tall ladder and thank God also cos no one knows, slient mode again. and ya, if not now im in dono where le ar. i really cant imaging what if really really ar. cannot cannot, don imaging betta.

Hmms. and yea. another thing that cheat my feeling, that is my Creative. i mean e person who sell it to me. arG~! say got wireless but end up my 8GB doesnt have, only available in 16GB/24GB i think. but its alrights, i also don use wireless so often so don laugh. u know who u are. and tell u, i still prefer my Creative. mine is still e best, ur IPOD TOUCH are nth le. :x so don try to tempt me w ur IPOD TOUCH. :x somehow someday i'll still get my IPOD TOUCH de. (:

and I MISS JOANNE LIM JIA HUAN!!!!! miss gg BS w her, miss having our dinner and supper tgt. that day is e day where we had our Last dinner and supper. don worries, 5mths will pass real fast de. and ya, i'll go get a webcam and headset w mirc ASAP. of cos, so cute, just talk to her thru MSN or skype, and i was like a mute person and she's e one who kept talking and i typed! so funny and cute can. and seriously, i miss her badly. thou knew her not really that long but i really thank God for her. and just wanna tell u that, "JIAYOU and will keep u in prayers de. and im so excited to get a webcam and talk to u over msn. u must JIAYOU and update ur blog often ok. and last but not e least, I MISS YOU and I LOVE YOU too!! (:"

Hmms. and yea. now im in e midst of hols. catch me if u can! till 12oct! 1 mth plus. but sad to say gonna work. but nono. cannot everyday work, will KO de. so will make time de. but haha. happy to say, im quite pack or rather full during my hols cos i see my calendar den no blank de, got blank but a few days only. haha. so catch me if u can. =D

*Joy covers ALL.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008 @10:09 PM

Today is e day.
Lost in e Darkness.
a place where i never been and was afraid
but there was no one beside me.
The Dark have become even Darker den eva.
i couldnt even see a thing.
Am lost and wasnt afraid afterall cos
loneliness is a small lil things to me at that moment.
who will i turn to?
but e moment i tot of seeing u
excitement but yet afraid.
and when i see ur smile, i hold my tears.
its only when i left u, i could just tears.
there're alot of things that i wanna tell u
but e moment i saw u, Joy but yet Break.
and times passes fast.
could u just bring me away this lonely place.
im tempted to make that silly decision
BUT u're e one who i worried of.
who will take cares of u if i left.
e image of u are in my mind
always and always.

Thursday, September 04, 2008 @7:51 PM

*BRB*

Yea. will be back after my papers.

don worries. im alrights. (:

Guard my Heart. Guard my mind.

awww~~!

I can do ALL things thru Christ who strengthen me!!

Tuesday, September 02, 2008 @11:01 PM

man~! i need WISDOM and STRENGTH from God!!!! stressful, struggling thru my revision. did i revise? yea, like real! can i fight this battle which im fighting thru right now? my brain has totally STOP. i really do not know how to move on. next wk is exam le. will i score 'As'. ha! if i score a 'Bs', im laughing away alrdy. arg~! AFD & BFD is totally craps. now all i feel like doing is to run away.

@1:29 PM

Hmms. He~llo! alrights. before i really start to MIA. nono. relac. not really MIA in person but MIA in here. Man~! i must really start my revision NOW. NOW IS E TIME! cannot cannot. cannot liddat de. NOW means NOW. anw, i planning to start today cos if i start earlier, i'll sure forget everything so haha. clever me. but i really really pray and fast for my exam next wk. i wanna get 'As'! i dono how i gonna get it or do it but i really gonna work hard study hard. thou there're only 2 modules but e 2 modules are a KILLER. :x

and man~! i really wanna COL le. cannot LOL le. Bill come le. and woah~ $100! tell me how? of cos im alrdy heart-prepare le. so yea. prepare to get nag. prepare to scarifice. prepare to work more ar. hor? arg~! and yea. always w/o fail, im kept telling myself, 'THIS IS SCARIFICES'. and this is e sentnece which keep me move on. (:

Hmms. and yea. im here to annouce that 'NO MORE IPOD TOUCH for CELESTE!' ): i brought a 'Creative Zen X-Fi' for myself. on e other side, i wanna cry cos money gone but on e another side, thats my 'Belated birdae present' for myself. (: but i don mind if u wanna bless me w e IPOD TOUCH ar. (: arg~! was wondering whether did i make a wrong decision of buying that. pls tell me no, i didnt. but anw, i've alrdy brought it le so no use to go think of it. *Major on e minor, Minor on e major! there're betta thing for me to think ar. so yea lor. and hor. haha. my Zen X-Fi has become my Precious right now, i'll take care of it gently. and e person told me can go MSN but i still trying to firgure out how? if u happen to have e same Zen X-Fi as me, pls tell me how. thanks so much!

Hmms. woah~! its 2 Sep le. its like so fast can. AUGUST passed away alrdy. den now sep den oct den X'mas. den CNY take ang bao. =D den 2009. days passes so fast that i don even know im 18th. but yea lor. days passes days. i don even know how e rest of e days are gg to happen but i know it gonna be a GOOD one cos He planned everything for me. (:

In life, sure have disappointment, discourage, sadness, stressfulness etc. but life gonna go on. Yea, there're times where ppl might hurt u but e funny thing is they didnt realise it. and im super disappointed. what to do? and was scrolling down my contact. nah.. no one i can really call and talk to. as in, have ar, if talk craps, chit-chatting have alot. but come to a serious point whereby u're so down and u need someone to talk to that kind. but most impt is e person understand how u feel lor but funny thing is i realise everyone will say 'i understand how u feel' BUT does they really know it? and how i wish, "DADDY GOD" is in my contact. and someone said 'dial 777' to get thru Heaven. BUT cheat my feeling. =.= cos i tried but it said 'number not in use'. but still, e best place is still in Heaven. where no one can hurt u, where u can find Peace and Love in there. how i wish im there right now. but saddening, im here on earth. But Praise e Lord too. cos i know what im on earth for.

Hmms. and so yea bah. gonna stop here le. and do what i need to do le. (: haha. i pray i will ar. whaahah. no say but pls do it! (: pls motivate me by buying me a cup of CCC. (: i'll blog if i want to or rather im free. but i'll still reply all ur taggies. <3>

*i give all my Hurts to You.

@11:11 AM

nah.. no one....

scroll and scroll but not even one.

not even You, she, he, her or him.

wall isnt a person.

how i wish 'DADDY GOD' is in it.

so i could call Him.

Heaven is use e best of all.