Hmms. ehh. its 3pm again! 3 more hr to go. and hor, i realise sth. everytime ard 3 i'll slack de. alamak. im really bored. not only me. my collegue also say she bored. haha. and guess what. we're sleepy. and i found out that she'll also go toilet and sleep. i also!! =D and guess what, today i went to have lunch w em. one of my collegue very funny, he say how to make u go out. out of e office. cos i never eat lunch w em. den today also one of e collegue, today last day so go have lunch tgt lor. and yea. im finally out. (: haha! and we'll like talk alot things, cos "boss" email us that we cant have our "packed lunch" at our table must go IT room outside eat. den we sian half way lor. and also, i found out that we cant go youtube, msn and everything. cos she kena caught a few time. cos her seat is very easy to seen de. but mine wont. no one can really see me expect my chair. so yea. but we do it sercretly :X but nth sinful ar. cos don expect us to sit there 8hrs doing e data, serious. we'll get mad de.

Hmms. and ytd had e mtg w yuzhen le. and yea. e mtg was alright lor. similar to pst zhuang de. and i know who's under my care and everything le. at 1st i was really shock. seriously. cos im thinking. God. how am i gg to do all this. some of them look stranger to me thou we'll in e same CG. and one of them doesnt have a HP, how to contact, and one flying le, and another one i don really talk to her. sms and call her never reply nor ans. and i was like. God, u really plan VERY well. cos i feel that God is giving me a chance to talk to em, to really have a relationship w em lor. But i think and think and think. God. HOW? and Joel was helping me. me and him alright ar, still can click. but Daddy God. now all i Pray is i can work well w joel and e members who is in my care and e new frens ar. all this cannot be done w/o Praying and Fasting de. arg! but i scare... arg!! alot of things. i don wan to confess.*stressed, worries, doubtful, afraid.

Daddy God.
Let me lead on to Your Strength. and let me lead on to e Holy Spirit. Not my power, But Yours! Daddy God. i CAN do ALL things thru Christ who strengthen me!! i dono how am i gg to do all this. But by Your Grace, i BELIEVE that im gg to make it. my Grp is gg to grow. and e members is gg to be so spiritually and e frens WILL BE become ur disciple and stay in your kingdom!! and i wan to serve You in Your kingdom. i know during this race, You'll w me and i'll cling on to You. and i'll not rely on my own, but i'll rely on e Holy Spirit! Let me think positively!! i want to think e way u think!! i want to be e way You are!

*You're a stranger to me.

Hmms. another 3 more hours to 6pm! and knock off from work. Praise e Lord! everyday im waiting for 6pm! looking forward to 6pm everyday. and im happy. and im super bored now. yea. im working but yet im still bored. watching HelloKitty and Tom & Jerry in Youtube. and guess what, HelloKitty got mouth de ok. don believe go youtube see. (: hmms. anw. my hand is hurt. e table too high. and chewing chocolate and HelloKitty sweet now. (: my lunch is bread and sweet and chocolate. Yummy! *can someone fast forward e time to 6pm for me?

Hmms. was reading Joyce Meyer de book called "BattleField of e mind". its a awesome book. go read it. and i read until a doubtful and unbelieving mind. and ya! it was talking about me! am i a person of faith in my heart or a doubtful mind in my heart? Hey, Kim! what am i thinking about? Daddy God is looking. Do i have e Faith and Trust in Him? w/o Faith it is impossible to Please Him. He~llo! what am i thinking about? For what He think in His heart, So is he. God never say i cant, but it was ME who say cant. and i pray that thru this journey, i pray that His Grace and Strength will be upon me. i dono how am i gonna do it, but by His Grace lor. By Fasting and Prayers.

Hmms. and certain things. i should let go le. what i should let go i should let it go. but im trying to let go. but how? e truth have been set. no use dwelling in it le. its e future not e past. what is my past, i dono. i only know my future. that is do Great things for Daddy God. and make Him proud and make JiaHui Proud! Daddy God, its my commiment w You. i'll always rmb what u told me during CG. "Im Proud of You, Celeste. thou so many things happen, You still cling on to me. Im really Proud of You, My Dear Daughter. Contiune to put your trust in Me." and tears flow down.

*my desire is to be w You always and forever, Jesus.

Hmms. tmr gonna meet pst and wed mtg yuzhen for some CG stuff. was kinda excited but yet heart was not right. i dono what im thinking. just like what yuzhen said, our own have to be spiritual 1st. but look am what i am now. i don think im able. my heart really is excited but yet, i dono. having con call w yuzhen just now and im quite excited everything that she said but on e other side i was rather trouble. thinking will i be able to make it. will i be able to become a 'little helper" in e CG, could i be able to disciple e grp that im taking, could i be able to have e growth in my grp. thoughts here and there. "Pro 27:3, for what his heart think. so is He." im really looking forward to e day where i can do GREAT things for Daddy God but yet im trouble about certain things. and head hasnt been good this few days. head is spinning and it cant make me to sleep. need healing there and here.

*Daddy God. could You bring me home?

Hmms. today is MON! gosh~ so fast can? fri off, went out w Qi! oh no! MISS her soooo much can, but yea, have an great time w her and of cos Dar. thou e little time we had for lunch only but i still enjoy e time we had! both of u are LOVED and MISSED by me! (: looking forward to e day that we can go out again. and yea, of cos hope that we can go to e same Course and of cos Class again. but most impt is hope we can get in to e same sch and get to Hnitec ar. *By Faith. (:

Hmms. and sat also pass le. went to meer Daniel and ed to salon! went to do reborning and they went highlight. meet super early. and im e 1st to reach. redhill leh. not near ok. plus both of them stay nearer but im e 1st to reach. yea got any prizes =X and yea. finally! i reborned my hair hair!! anw, i breakthru le. cos everytime is 1 yr 1 time reborn but now i 1 yr 4mth never reborn. so breakthru lor. =D and went to far east to meet yuping after everything. and yea, born a top for CNY and a gardigan. yea, finally broughted! but bottom haven yet. but CNY next week only. but nvm, wear back e same old bottom. (: save money.

Hmms. and sun. svc! ehh, wait. sat nite went over to yuping's house to have overnight PM. and we was saying don sleep. but in e end, we slept. and really cant alrdy. den i slept on her bad and she go living room sleep on e sofa. *touched. actually tot she bluff de, cos she go out and she never come back le. and i don wanna go out cos very dark nah! =D so soon i fall a sleep and yea, wake up. thank God i set Alram if not u will not see Yuping and kim in svc. =D and svc was how to say ar. i don understand but only Reputation. but its was great thou. super sleepy in svc. and yea. went JP and headed to bugis after that to find KELLY!! and yea. have dinner at foodcourt and everything goes smoothly.

Hmms. and today! and guess what! wait! ehh. i did went for work. but back home at 12 plus. and guess what again. i slept at 10:50pm ytd after i reached home. i jump into my bed, never chn my shirt but chn short. and sleep. until 7:15am, work!! den somemore still not ok leh. very sleepy and went office. and msg boss say im not feeling well den i leave at 11:30am. den back home 12 plus. and sleep again. and 4 wake up. and wait. go home sleep but never chn shirt again. head heavy heavy. and i hate it ok. dono what my body is or rather wants. body, u tell me, what u want? i say wanna see doc but end up haven. =D gosh~! my sensitive eye and nose is back. don touch my eye, will RED. and nose, touch ah chew le. and my heart, pain! not e feeling but its really e heart. and my gastric. alright, whateva. don talk le. so yea! anw. i want to take care of my body cos its e temple of God! and Holy Spirit lives in me!! and yea, im fasting every mon, wed and fri!! woah~ but pls, gastric don come.

Hmms. alright! let me tell u all. anw, thanks for concern! work was alright so far. i think as i work long den i'll use to it le. cos my rec are from Glory to Glory!! haha! Guess what. today my rec are 291! when i saw, den i was like, Praise e Lord! and guess what, i was watching 'youtube' while working cos its was like so bored and sleepy. and i cant eat anything cos im fasting 'mon,wed,fri' (: den aiyo. go youtube watch funny funny show. and its really funny! and i was like laughing all e way! but anw, thank God for e Grace and Strength! (:

Hmms. and 30more min! my paid will get into my bank! and my bank will finally have some amt le. Praise e Lord! haha! and yea. finally can give to Building fund le. and pay this and that think no more. and im looking forward to 25feb again! and i love every 25th of e mth of JAN, FEB and MARCH! den april sch lor! hmms. quick, i rather be a student which im now. but e transport fare. irritated! nvm, soon! and yea, PRAY that i'll be able to get in Higher Nitec, Admin course! my 1st choice, and my 2nd is Accounting. i've no choice to put that as 2nd cos i heard that accounting have no road and it super diff so i choose admin 1st. (: and btw, there're 10 choices.

Hmms. and yea. i need time to think thru everything that im struggling w now. i've a hard burden in my heart which i dono how. but nvm, cast ALL my burdens upon Him! He's my Freedom! and evil Devil keep on distrub me, give me all e negative thoughts until my ownself cant even imaging! so irritated! get lost! *He Break my Heart BUT Jesus Healed my Heart! and now, all i can say is "I MISS HIM BADLY!". e moment i think of him, arg! nvm. all i Pray is God will sent Angels to surround Him, Protect Him. Thank You Jesus, Amen! and i never even call him personally e word a daughter will called. when is e day? how i wish i can go and visit him. Daddy God. even is just a dream, Please let me have that Dream, i Pray! all i Pray is let Your Love surround him. that all i Pray! Daddy God!!!

hmms. and i think i gonna visit e doctor le. dono why this few days. everyday w/o fail. my head is like spinning. and its like, super long never come le budden dono why return back again. and its make me very pain and very uncomfortable. wanna vomit, ehh, wait! u all don think too much! and its like sud u sit down, ur head is spinning, and got loads of time when i was walking, i need to hold on to sth or someone to stand still as i don wanna fall. and yea. so long never visit e doctor le. i also don wan go polyclinic. so boring. anyone acc me go leh. so i got someone to talk to. (: nvm, God is w me. i can talk to Him. anw, an mango a day will keep e doctor away. (:

Daddy God.
i know You Love me. and i Love You too. But Daddy God. its hard. i dono how. Abba Father, Pls do not let me go. can i hold on to Your Hand always and never let go. Daddy God. You know my every thoughts. Daddy God. i don wanna go back to e kim where just a hit and i fall. its really hard. i only wanna PLEASE You alone. and Daddy God, i know when i call You, You'll ans my call. and when i msg You, You'll reply my msg. i know You'll surely reply me unlike man. i know when u saw my missed call, You'll surely call me back. and i do it for HIm not for man! in e end, God knows only. in e end, He'll say to me, "well done!".
Daddy God.
i just enter a narrow gate. and i know if i wont give up and keep on walking, i know i'll be able to reach e end and able to find You. and i wanna find e secret place where only have You and Me. Daddy God. a Pure heart thats what i long for. and a heart that hides Your word so that sin will not come. and i wan to sing until im lost in Your Love. Daddy God. come and Heal my Heart.

Daddy God.
Lifes may be Up and downs in times. But i know You're w me. The day since i know You. Its has been Great But.during e Journey, i may wanna give up. e race i have ran. in end You'll say to me.
"My Kim, no one endure till e end But You did. Im so Proud of You. "Matt 10:22"
i doesnt know how am i gonna ran this race but when i reach e end im SURE im gonna see my Daddy God over there. Standing at e goal lines Cheering up, "JiaYou, Kim! Im just RIGHT here!". My Heart is Burden about certain things. Im dissapointed sometime. Im Discourage sometime. e tears that i drop, no one knows but You knows. no one knows how sad am i But You knows. e thoughts that i think, u know everything. cos my heart is link to You. sometime ppl is down and i encourage them but e funny thing is i doesnt know how to encourage myself.
Daddy God.
since e day i was in my mum's stomach, You plan everything for me. what is my name, what is my height, my character, my look and when i gonna know You, when i gonna be so Strong in e Lord. and e result is You created "CeLeste Heng Kim Hong". i dono how e race is. im imprefect. but God will use imprefect person cos His Grace will be upon me. and from a imprefect person, i'll become a Little Christ. how i wish i can do Great things for God. i can serve Him forever. how i wish i wont fall just by a small little hit by a stone. who am i? if i gonna fall, He'll catch me and tell me, You're mine. e journey is just like a staircase from e earth link to Heaven. will i be able to climb up to e end?

Hmms. He~llo!! how's everyone week? no matter what week u have, Trust in Him, alright, He's ALWAYS there for u cos He's "Omnipresent=God is EVERYWHERE". Great is Our God! and what ever feeling u're in now, God knows cos He is "omniscient=God knows EVERYTHING". and yea. went for "CGM". yea, u never see wrongly, its CGM. cos Yuzhen couldnt make it tmr so have our CGM today instead. but aiyo. quite "a few" turn up cos some couldnt make it so ya. but its alright. cos in a few weeks time, we gonna see many many many ppl in e CG and even NEW FACES! *Faith! If we can see it, we can have it!!

and yea. CGM was AWESOME! today CGM kinda like PM. and yea! PRAY PRAY PRAY! God IS listening to our Prayers and our Prayers WILL surely comne to Past! and yea, Presence of God was SUPER strong! during e games, His Presence is there le. and yea, even thou there'll a few only but God is there! and actually, i went to CG w a "Burden Heart". im Burden about 'a few things' which affected me very badly but He's Our Prince of Peace! and during worship, His Presence really pour down on me STRONGLY. seriously. i gonna Trust in Him. in everything! during offering, i really give my BEST, and it really my best, my biggest amt. and i dono how i gonna survive e next few days BUT i trust in Him, cos He's my Provided! Daddy God i've nth to give You but to give u my ALL, my time, my everything to YOU!

Hmms. and yea. just a bit of "update" of my work. this few days, i able to aim above 200 rec! and i was like. so HAPPY! and yea. thank God! i seriously dono how but i know His Grace is upon me lor. and yea. waiting for my Paid day, and gonna plan, and i alrdy plan le. and yea of cos gonna give to BF 1st and my tithe and my "debt". and another thing! TRANSPORT! *madness! i counted le. every fri, i need to spent $4.67 cos today i spent $4.67. and i feel im so 'adult'. so it nearly to my one day allowance. and wed, got BS also. but never count but think 1 week $30? imaging got 4 weeks! *madness! $120! i can buy "1 BIG hellokitty le". woah~ but its alright! He's KIM's Provided!! (: *I LOVE YOU, Daddy God!

Hmms. ehh. *working in progress. budden let me relac a while ar. i shall blog 1st cos my right hand is super pain, i dono why my right shoulder is even painer. when i touch, can cry ar. like u know pop out den got red red. don ask me why i also dono mayb bcos e table too high den e hair too short but e chair i alrdy ajust e highest le. God, Heal my right hand. i cant move my right hand. anyway. Thank You ppls, who entering my blog even thou i din update. cos working and very tired and also very lazy to update. so yea lor. never update. will reply ur tags asap. (:

Hmms. and work ar work. God! make my work easy easy pls. and thanks those who ask me 'how's my work'. and i gonna reply same and same and again and again. liddat lor, boring and tiring, keep yawing. and very COLD. can turn ice le. God, give me Your warmness. i wonder issit outside raining and indeed its is raining everytime after work, its rain outside. no wonder so cold. and now, im sitting like as if im in coffee shop. anyway. no one saw cos im very tall den they cant see me. (: Kim Lost her image le. haha! nvm ar. im crossing my leg. =D

Hmms. and i wonder who "really" Love and care for a person. its easy to say, "i Love You" and "I miss You" but does it really meant from e bottom of e heart. its easy to say but how about e 'action'? a person who really Love and care for u will be always there for u. seriously. e person i can turn to firstly is Jiahui. she's always here for me and i can tell u that she's so wonderful! whenever i talk to her, she give me e Peace and always there to encourage me. and another person is YuPing. she's e one who always encourage me and whenever i tell her im sad or anything, she'll encouarge me. and i can even talk to her on e fone for 3hrs? and she really always there for me whenever im down. all i can say is in w362, she's e closest to me. and i really thank God for this 2 ppl. and of cos another most impt person, My Jesus! no word can express my Love for Him But Jesus, Thank You, Jesus! Your Presence is so Great! My committment w u. My Journey w u. During my up and downs, You're w me! I LOVE YOU JESUS!

and yea. who cares. Jesus is w me. i'll not fear and i'll be STRONG! kim is a strong gal. even no one know how i feel right now. but He know. Daddy God, You're e Strength in my Heart. He's smiling to me and say "My Little Kim, Be strong. Im w u 24/7. no one is going to hurt u. Trust in me and im holding ur hand tight and never let u go." Abba, i know u'll never let me go. i'll follow You, Daddy God! I LOVE YOU, Daddy God!

Hmms. HEY!! haha! i tot i'll be rotting at home today but guess what! NO! my xiao yi asked me whether wanna go out makan mah. den i say ok ar. den she say after a while she come and drive me. so i rush to bath. (: thou not ex places but its what i feel like eating! we went 85 market at bdk. den i ate porridge, stingray, chicken wing, outa?? and really i feel so happy! my dinner!! Thank u Jesus! (: and yea, my aunties dote me more!!! how i wish they're my mother! i feel so loved by my aunties!

But anyway, after eating, we went to bdk inter. and my aunty Bless me CNY clothes, and i brought a dress! ((: haha! 1st dress in my 17th life. actually small small got wear dress but now don have but now i brought a dress!! (: haha. and yea, my aunty bless me another thing also. sth personal ar even my mum never buy for me. but seriously wanna thank God for e Blessing. and my aunty just like my mum, help me find and i was there see see lor. den everyshop we went they will say 'ur daughter ar' and how i wish ya. and ya, don think bdk wulu wulu de, got clothing de ok. and yea, walk walk a while went home and guess what. she pass me $30 and say go buy shoe or anything, and i actually don wanna take but yea, thank God for e Blessing, seriously! God is My Provider!! (:

Hmms. alright, 2nd entires for today. (:

Hmms. afternoon! (: im rotting at home today! don feel like gg out today so stay at home. but tell u, its BORED man! Totally BORED like crazy. BUT im having BAD Headache right now! but its alright. this is what i choose. (: haha! that why i don ever like staying at home e whole day at least go out 1hr or 30min will do. and im vomiting just now, really terrible! im happy about it but seriously don feel like gg out. e reason are:

1)can save transport fare, its really ex like crazy. and i dono how im gg to survive, just top up a just a FEW days ago and become 4 plus le. den from east all e way to e west and wah. siong ar really siong. den think ar, still need to take bus from my house to mrt den mrt den bus again to church den bus back to boon lay after svc den mrt den back to my home! 7 trip and mrt is not that cheap btw. and i don think 4 plus its enough. can i just lock myself in e house instead?

2) can save money! go out sure got eat dinner or anything de mah. so can save it up! (: but i know my lovelys will Bless me but i really don dare to receive cos they Bless me quite alot le. Thanks for e Blessing always, Lovelys, You all know who u are so i don have to mention ur sweety names. but im sure one day when i get my paid. I WILL bless them. not bcos they bless me so i must return. for me is not. cos Blessing is a willing. Its good to Bless others den to receive. and i really feel happy when i bless others. thou i don have much. i Bless not bcos i wan e return. but to be a blessing to others lor. so yea lor. But God is Great! God is My Provider!

3)can nuan at home. slept at nearly 3am ytd and woke up at nearly 11am den sleep again until nearly to 2pm. so long didnt have e chance to sleep so long. as i need to wake up early on wkday for work. ): can also can read bible and everything that i need to do also. so yea lor. and also i cop my bro's pocky. haha. i said to him. i eat ar, u also cant eat den i don care just open eat. (: and yea. no breakfast, lunch and dinner for today cos im FAT. haha. no la. u believe? wan diet also not this way. u must ACTION. but feel like eating porridge, noodle in short is all e hot hot spicy spicy stuff!

Hmms. and yea lor. one day soon gonna gone le. i wasted my sat just liddat. but its alright. (: and tmr sunday and e next day. haiis. work again. another week. can i don go? i rather go study den to work. but its alright. God, You're my Strength! i know that i wont "yawn" during work. =D and i gonna aim for 200 and above records for this week!! and yea. just another thing im gonna say. My another aunty call me and ask me whether u buy my CNY clothes and i say haven den i told her that woodland aunty alrdy given me $50 den she say enough or not not enough i give u another note! which is total $100?? but i don intend to take ar, cos i don dare to take. no matter what really thank God for e Blessing that He've Pour out on me. and guess what, God Bless me "10fold" from ytd offering! Daddy God, I LOVE YOU!!! <3

Hmms. alright. anything. whateva. okok. Stupid Devil! You GET LOST IN MY LIFE! You don have e right to stay in me! arg! whateva! this few days, arg! whateva ar! irritating. was quite burden about 'sth'. and i was like cant concenrate on my work this days. kept thinking and thinking. and during work, was listening to Praise and worship song thru sista xiaowei's blog. and tell u sth, Presence of God was super strong in me. and i seriously wanna kneel down and worship Him but of cos i cant. and really, there's tears in my eye and i really cant take it, i rush to toilet. and God, You're really Great! You're so Awesome! but i PRAY, Daddy God, Let Your wonderful Presence dwell in me ALWAYS! not just one min but ALWAYS.

Daddy God, You're my First Love and Forever Love. Your Love surround me from e start!! O Daddy God. Do not leave me, i Pray! Daddy God, hear my cries! i know You'll wipe away every tears in my eyes! Daddy God. no one know how i feel now, But Daddy God, You know cos My heart is link to Your Heart! Daddy God! i feel down right now But i know Your Love will be w me. You're here 24/7 w me! no one Love me But You Love me. O Daddy God, I Love because You First Love me!! When i fall down, You're e ONE who pick me up! Father, i wanna make a committed to LOVE u till e end, to FOLLOW You ALWAYS! You're ALWAYS my First Love! Thank You, Daddy God!

Hmms. anyway. just came back from CGM, and it was alright! but actually i was sharing a word in ministry time BUT i don think i did well. at first i was rather happy cos i tot i flow. cos e worship song was link to what i wanna share! "First Love" but everything, arg! nvm. and when i came back, i was rather sad. cos my bro is "sick" now. and my mum say sth like i bring u go see doc tmr. ok, u can say me jealous or whateva but i was thinking. when i sick, did u ask me? when i sick, she don even care. and seriously, i don feel e Love in my family. i feel unLove. but i love my ah ma, my aunties and most imptly is my DAD! no matter how he hurt me, but i still Love Him, and i dono why. and i tell myself, what if one day i really gone, will she be even happy? hmms. but anyway. this is just a 'stupid' thoughts that i have right now. but everything is gonna be ALRIGHT!!

hmms. and yea. tmr is SAT and guess what. i'll be staying at home whole day! *surprise? actually gg visitation w terry and after that meet one of my fren for movie budden in e end he was sick so cancel. so yea. anyway. i don feel like gg out tmr. wanna stay at home. emo emo a while. haha! rubbish! no ar. but anyway. Jesus, I LOVE YOU!

Hmms. ehh. i dono what happen ar. but just don bother about my previous post. haiis. i also dono how le. i told God that, i really dono what to do or rather how to move on le. BUT i know He'll make a way for me. so ya. and i think i've decided le. every morning walk out to take bus 24. den don need to take 222 from my house. so i might be waking up very early which i dono can mah. so yea lor. instead of 1 day 4 trip, why not i walk to bus stop in e morning den can save 1 trip. anyway. aiya. who ask my mum to choose this place so wulu wulu place that only have Bus 222.

Hmms. anyway. i shall blog what i wanna say for past few days. (: as i was saying, i went over to my aunt house to stay since i was at sembanwang. and yea, after my cousin has slept, i started to think quite alot of things ar. this and that. but i ask God, why He didnt put me in this family which im staying in right now. i feel jealous and envious for my cousins cos they've a family. and i started to think. and ya, God plan everything alrdy. but how i wish, just wish one day will do. let me be their real daughter for just one day. i'll thankful. but they're not my real parent. but its alright. and there are alot of thing gg thru my mind. some negative some positive. and i also think of God's Love for me. its like so wonderful. thou my life may have up and downs. But His Loves is forever w me. e day since i know Him, His Love is w me, and He'll never let me go.

Hmms. and i thank God for my aunty. how i wish, they're my mother. i think that they dote me loads. how i wish i can call them 'mum'. cos they keep asking me to call them 'mum', but i was so shy. and i really want to say thanks to them. and sun, i went out w my 3rd aunty and 2nd aunty. acc them to bugis to buy CNY clothes for their children. so they'll asking me want to buy CNY clothes but i say mama don wanna buy for me and and guess what, they ask me to choose what i want but i didnt cos i really feel quite dono how to say. but in e end, guess what, my 3rd aunty bless me to Pastamania and she even Bless me $50. and ask me to buy CNY clothes. and i really dono what to say but Praise e Lord! Thank You Jesus!

but i was thinking whether should i take e $50 to pay my Building Fund 1st? but wait later i CNY never buy new clothes, how? Hmms. but anyway seriously, i really thank God for everything. cos thou now i've stuggling about sth in my life but He's there. nothing can express my Love for Him. but all i wanna say is "Daddy God, I LOVE YOU! and pas few days, i been listening to Praise and worship song during my work. and His Presence is so strong till there's tears in my eye. and seriously. His Presence really dwell in me. Daddy God, You'll never let me go for sure! even no one follow You, I'll still follow You. and i wan to sing until im lost in Your Love!

Hmms. Daddy God! I NEED YOU! tell me how can i move on. i really dono how. i tell myself that if i got anything wrong. im fainted half way during my journey to anywhere, i get bang by any car while walking on e road. don blame me. its not my fault. its all ur fault. alright, firstly. i dono u are really my mother. or am i really ur fresh blood daughter. i dono. or rather am i picked from rubbish bin. i dono. i still rmb, when i was in pri sch, i use to tell my frens that i have no mother, my mother died alrdy. and ya, i dono why u treat me differently. and i was thinking, am i really really ur REAL daughter.

and i still rmb e testimony i share during appreciation CG. and i really feel terrible after all e banging and everything. i really don wish to do it, but u push me to do it. u doesnt know after i do all e banging, how my heart feel. i don think u'll be sad but one thing i know u are angry and and u'll complain to my aunty and u'll say sth like. if i know earlier, i could wont want u and i could rather give u to my father. and i was thinking. great! all along, i wanna be w him. so i could rather be thankful. but no matter where he is, where he stay, no money, no house, no food, nothing. i'll rather go w him. and tell u, I MISS HIM. and tell u one more thing. i wanna to do anything to get inside. and stay inside w him. rather den living in this house w dono how to say. and ya. since u wan me to pay everything by myself. fine, I'LL PAY BY MYSELF! and Daddy God, HOW? i was thinking, how to move on? 1 day $5. and u ask me to pay Transport fare, food and everything? and i still got Building fund and tithe which she dono. and i cry out to God. God! how am i gg to carry on. i dono.

and now, when i go work, i never eat my lunch or rather breakfast? i'll go home eat my dinner which my ah ma cook. why? all i wan is to save e $5 to give to my Building fund, tithe and now transport fare and everything. and i was so stress up. ok, since u wan liddat, ok ar. i fulfill ur "dreams"? but if anything happen to me, or u get a phone call from police that im dead. sorry, there's no rewind.

and all e long, i wish to have a 'HAPPY FAMILY'. i was rather jealous about others. about my cousin cos they have a family. what is every child dreams. is to have a family. and ya, actually i wanna to blog an exciting, and interesting things that i wanna blog past few days. But don think i could wan to blog le. i could blog it up either tmr or other day bahs. but sorry Guyz, for e dono how to say 'entires' that i updated.

Hmms. alamak!! im super mad now! do u know what happen!?!? of cos u dono what happen cos i haven said yet. aiyo. its like! i really mad until cant mad le until i call my mum!! when i saw my bed, its was like, aiyo! how come liddat, my BIG helloKitty how come e face got dust! and i was like. WHO IS E ONE WHO MAKE IT!! and i really super mad and ok, i shall not conitune to say what happen to me. den i really very sad and angry at e same time but nvm. But sorry Daddy God for my anger and everything. and guess what, i didnt come home for just one day and my bed... actually is not e 1st time. but i say so MANY time le. DON TOUCH MY BED! alright, i shall control. (: and my bro just told me that 'wah, ur bed very nice to sleep leh.' den i was like..

Hmms. anyway. had a little fellowship w Terry Papa and yuping ytd. and guess what, its was great thou. after visiting xinhui, we acc yuping to MOS burger. *see, we so great acc she go. =D so yea. before gg over to 'sembangwan' to meet yuping, i met a few of CGM at minds cafe and i so shock by e attendace cos at 1st there'll ard 12 ppl gg but end up, guess how many was there? 4 ppl was there only. e rest of them, i was rather disappointed by them or rather quite feel sad for e person who organsize. cos everyone say yes, will come but end up. put aeroplane. and i was like. he~llo! even thou, im not e one who organsize, i kinda feel really dono what to say. and i 3 plus den meet them at minds cafe cos i woke up ard 12plus. and i slept at 2am =X but anyway. james and huiyun came to my house and wait for me and we go tgt to minds. so yea.

and after everything, went SUBWAY! haha! *shiock man! and fly to sembangwang to meet yuping le. so on e way in train. Thanks Terry for acc. had an great fellowship w him. we talk loads of things. and yea. its was Great! and went to stay over at my woodland's aunt house. cos i was at sembangwang so im kinda lazy or rather boring to go back alone to bdk. so i went over to my aunt place and sleep. and haha! only a few notice about my attire. of cos those who went minds cafe ytd de should know but vernon don seem to know!! haha! its a good thing! haha! so yea lor. haha. but anyway. i gonna stop here le. later will be even a GREAT post. cos if i conitune to write, it'll be super long entires which i don think u all wanna read on. but instead i'll blog tmr or later. but i finding a blogskin which can been seem everything in one window. asin ok, my entires box i wan it wider. asin not so cramp until e post so long. cos actually my entires is short de. budden e box is too small that make my entires longer.but hope u understood what i have said. haha! alright. contiune later. =D

Hmms. today went to meet Mdm Foo and ShuBing. its has been a super long time that i didnt saw Mdm Foo le. dono how many years. think ard 6 or 7 years. and we super long never saw her le. and yea. today finally saw her. and so long never saw her, she change quite alot le. she kept saying she old le. but we kept saying that she not old cos human one day will become old de mahs. so yea lor. and really, we really very Bless about her. that in pri sch she was our chi teacher. and we really Loves her loads and we miss her loads too! and yea. so we really have an wonderful fellowship today. even thou its just a dinner and a short period of time. and i really thank God for e Fellowship that we have just now. and also she Bless us alot of food. and we were super full. we went sakae sushi!! and i cant believe i ate e not cook "salmon". oh my! den i was like wanna vomit out le. but mdm foo take mahs den we cant don eat. and i was like eat e most of that lor cos she ask me eat. den i say 'orh'. budden i kept drinking water. and out alot of sauce.

Hmms. den today i really feel so bless. she bless us everything. asin everything that she brought. and we never paid anything today. and after sakae, we went walk walk and den she wah. we really very full le but she kept take this and take that and we were like. den buy alot of 'food' den i told shubing, die le. gain 5kg le. den we'll like laughing all e way! den after this and that we went to drink coffee. e famous de. den e coffee very 'ku' den she go buy 'old chang key' for us den no choice we gonna eat! haha! den after that we go buy again, say bring home and let ur family eat. den we 'orh'. but after that we took some foto. and yea. quite happy. and Mdm foo, i know u surely wont view my blog de. but i wanna say that. no matter what, You're always our Favourite teacher. You're always in our heart and on that day u retire, we cried cos we really appreaciated u. Thank You for everything You've done! and yea. hope to meet up w em soon again! and lewei gonna come! today she din come. ): hope she feeling betta le. (: yea?

Hmms. and today, clever de me. cos i lent my bro ipod den his ipod all e song like hmms. aiyo. den very sians den hor. i tot of a way. plug e ear piece to e CPU den can listen to e song in e com. den i was like. eheh. Kim is so clever! haha! but e prob is e ear piece is too short la. and my eye sight becoming worst and worst le. but nvm. and im wondering how many rec i done today. and yea. i told u guyz that i brought sour sweet right. and i DOESNT HELP at all. but its make my mouth pain. cos its sour and will make ur mouth pain ar. but its alright. and also i have headache in e middle of work. den i was like. aiya. dono what body i have also. later here pain there pain. but its alright ar. 2008! i pray i'll have a HEALTHY BODY! yea! AMEN! haha!! alright alright. tmr gonna be great again. haha! actually everyday also great cos can fellowship. and This is e day that e Lord have made, Lets us rejoice and be glad in it! Amen!!!! *Loves.

Hmms. yea. had an Great Fellowship just now w Yuping follow by James join us abit later. was susppose to meet shubing de but end up she cant make it so we fellowship ourselve lor. (: Its was an Great Fellowship thou. haha! Thank God for e Fellowship that we had. (:

Hmms. anyway. about my job. i really quite stress up. cos this 2 days, i work until so hard but end up "boss" email me how many records i did budden end up it not what i expected. budden i counted is 200 plus but she email me only 95 and 114 for this 2 days. den i was like. in my heart thinking she got count wrong mahs. cos i really counted is 200 plus den i stop de. budden end up. aiya! anything lor. ok la, if say got some wrong budden also not so many wrong mahs. right? aiyo. i dono ar. kinda stress cos e work make me stress. cos got so many country how i know. den is like, im that kind of "stupid stupid" never go other country before how i know australia which part is which part. budden nvm lor. but aiyo. den plus still got alot of things need to do. meet up frens. den very sudden. den i was like. God! Budden its alright, anyway Thanks Yuping for ur couragement and ur entires about e "rainbow". i'll rmb de. =D

Hmms. i mean i don mind meeting up w frens all this. and arg! nvm ar. (: alright! btw. got one person called me and say im shortlisted by their company and ask me go interview but after discussing w yuping den i sms him im not gg le. cos yuping say maybe it bluff bluff de. so i din go lor. (: anyway. tmr gonna meet up w Mdm Foo and 2 others frens. so happy! Its has been a SUPER long time. When i was in primary until now. haha! so Happy. another GREAT fellowship tmr! haha! anyway. this week, im packed w work and mtg up w ppl. But also, im HAPPY. cos fellowship! haha! =D

Hmms. and yea. i feel like im e "Blog robber". like go to ppl's blog w/o them knowing. cos i'll go to ppl blog de budden i din tag. its just like a robber go rob into a house den leave no edvience behind. i almost all go e ppl in my liink and go to ppl i dono de cos can link here link there mahs. haha. cos i like to read ppl blog and see their blog. haha. hmms. budden u'll think that im super free ar but no ar. haha! but anyway. yea lor. Blogging is good cos u can throw everything out. for me la. that why u'll see on and off sometime. But let not Sadness dwell in me. But let JOY dwell in me. Amen? haha! alright alright. btw. i brought sour sweet for tmr during work. lets see whether it works. haha! =D

Hmms. HEY! everyone. haha! guess where am i now? im in e office! cos now break time den i never go lunch so stay in e office lor. den really thank God ehh cos i think of one idea. morning ask my mum to buy breakfast den lunch don need eat den dinner go back eat but this few days need to meet loads of ppl so dinner have to settle outside. ): but its alright. its worth! cos fellowship!! rmb, KIM LOVE FELLOWSHIP. (: haha! anyway, its a good idea, can save MONEY! den yea lor. anyway, most of them also tell me 'breakfast' is more impt! budden breakfast will make me go toilet imm i ate but haha. Praise e Lord! today i din go to toilet! haha! budden i realise sth, i eat no eat also fat. arg! i find that i grow fatter and fatter somemore is i never eat lehs. but its alright! budden just now my stomach abit calling me le. den i kept eating sweet and biscuit!!! *yummy! haha. den wait until dinner den go meet yuping and frens den go eat lor. *SUBWAY, here i come!!!*. =D

Hmms. anyway. today "boss" msg me. "Pls come to my office once u reach". den i was like. die liao lor. den i din reply her den she sent one more time. den when i reach i fly to her office. den i kinda get scolding by her ar. den i was like. ok lor. my fault my fault. haha. cos quite a number of them was wrong cos all is dono what country de. i only know my own country, SINGAPORE. haha. but anyway. nvm. get scolded lor. den alot of thing need to find. den i dono why e person from other country never put their particular lehs. den i have one by one search. tell me how to search. somemore when i go their webby, i don understand cos not in english, its dono what franch or dono what lauguage. but its alright. *wo ren. (:

Hmms. haha! anyway. now is break now. finally. cos im really SUPER TIRED! eye wanna close just now when i was doing work. den i was like, GOD! You're my Strength!!! den i take out my ear-phone den i listen to Praise song and some worship song. den make me so HIGH budden e moment i stop, my eye closing again. den i really cannot take it le. i go toilet, rest 5min in e toilet. den i cant listen much cos later im gg out den later hp no bat. that why i stop. haiis. i really need a MP3. i see whether my this month pay how much den i can go buy cheap cheap de. ehh!! cant. BUILDING FUND 1st! nvm ar. i also don think my paid will have that much also. so yea lor. nvm ar. ): anyway. yea lor. wanna take my bro IPOD but no Praise and Worship song. all e noisy noisy song and some chi song. den alright lor.

Hmms. haha! anyway. i left 15min. gonna read my bible. i brought my bible w me! can read while break time and in bus! budden hor, prob is i cant cocenrate when very noisy i need song to cover my ear den i can concenrate. but its alright. haha. den hor, later i read in my office and in bus. later wah. Presense of God so Strong hor until everyone tears and everyone say wanna go Church and everyone wanna receive salvation ar! and there's POWER over here ar. see, God is so Great! haha! so happy! yea lor. so i stop here le. haha. *Loves. <3

Hmms. today is e 1st day of 2008! how's everyone day? hope u have FUN cos i Have FUN too! haha! =D *shhs. i scream!! only 3 ppl know. haha! (: but anyway. lets me write a quick post and back to quiet time and den go to my bed le. tmr need to WORK and it'll be very tired de. so yea.

Hmms. was planning my Tithe and BF. den i told God. God, i dono how to complete. seriously. i dono how. and i really CRY OUT to God. i really need a breakthru! as i was planning and cannot la. it was like. so tight. den seriously i really dono how to fullfill it lehs. even thou now im working but i don even know e paid rate, it like so messy can. den my ez-link gonna expire le. must paid adult fare le. it was like, alamak! i rather be kids! $0.45 only. den somemore april den sch start. den this 4 month must paid adult fare, den be prepare to get scolded lor. but think u'll see me in fellowship even lesser le. cos i don wanna run here and there. cos it really cannot cannot. e trip is like so ex. adult fare lehs. u think what. children. but i was planning to use my cousin ez-link, $0.45 only. but will get caught.

Hmms. anyway. yea. work so far is like. hmms. dono how to say. its like alamak! faint! dono i can hang on till march or april mahs. can i? or can i just QUIT? and change job but tell me where do i go and find a new job now?? arg! but anyway. everything will be alright ar. i just need to TRUST in HIM! and do not lose Heart! PrayPrayPray!! so yea. everything gonna be alright! hmms. yea!

Hmms. and yea. i seriously dono what happen. i dono what is my body function. pass few days i was like vomiting every night. and it is ard 4 midnight? i wanna sleep. not vomit in e midnight. HEY! give me a break. and my cough is like coughing for 2 weeks le? and i having BAD headache this few days. alamak! stop it man! i seriously cannot take it le la! i wanna CRY! seriously. but anyway. Pray la. all i need is to Pray lor. alright. so everyone gonna go le. tmr gonna wake up early! Nites everyone!

Hmms. HEY! Happy 2008! Welcome 2008! 2007 has just pass away. and 2008 has just born! and every sadness that has happen in 2007 gonna be throw away but all e JOY gonna be e memories. and yea. 2007 is a year of dono how to say year for me. that loads and loads of thing happening. but i dono how i can hang on to e end of e year. i dono how BUT one thing i know is By e Grace of God lor. whatever happening in 2007, lets forget! and i PRAY that everyone of us will really get Bless and Love God even more, cos He's Great! Amen? and i PRAY that everyone will have e Peace of God in their life. He is our Peace, Joy and Love. it will be surrounding us. i really PRAY that everyone of us were really know where we are heading to and what e vision that God has given us and really CHANGE to become a Child of God. to be a Little Christ.

Hmms. and lets really get prepare for another Great Year and a Year that is on Fire for God. and of cos a Year of Breakthru in our Spiritual life! and yea. everything, not by our Mind, not by our Power But by e HOLY SPIRIT! and yea yea. do u guyz start planning for 2008? haha. im on e way in planning le. i believe 2008 is gonna be a Great and breakthru year for me. i can SEE IT! i believe im gg to make it. if i can make it on 2007, why not 2008! or rather why not until e day i died? that i'll be able to walk w my Daddy God and never give up! e day that i felt His Love, i told Him that i'll NEVER leave Him no matter what happen. In e days of trouble, He's there for me. He's my Forever Love.

Hmms. and thanks to all my Brothers and Sista in Christ. W220 esp, a Family that really Loves and it'll always in my heart! and W362, w all e Big kor kor and Big JieJie in e family and of cos W459, a Family that have loads of "kids", eh, children of God i mean. =D and for always being there for me. for your wonderful care and concern that u guyz have showered me. i have loads and loads of ppl to thanks but i know that if i will to contiune i think u guyz who are reading will be falling asleep. i know that not really alot of ppl who are viewing but still wanna Thanks them for everything that they've done in my life! and i really hope that i can make u all even happy and i'll be able to step into everyone of u de life. and i hope to know all of u even more. and let me have this chance to Love all of u even more den before. im sorry to some of em that i didnt care for em or rather love em in 2007, But i'll CHANGE! I Love all of u just as God Love us. (: We're a FamilyThatLoves. and we're a Puzzle, if one is lost, it'll never be complete!

Hmms. YEA! guess what! i got my result! and haha! im really thank God for e result. yea? thank God for His Grace and Mercy thru my exam. seriously. i struggle during my exam but e result is out. im really HAPPY. *hopefully, i'll be able to get into "Higher nitec". or straight to "POLY". actually, i don wish to contiune my studies le. but for God, i will at least get an "higher nitec" cert or if really really can, i HOPE to get an "diploma" cert. or if really really really seriously can, a 'degree' will be betta. or rather my wish will be gg oversea to complete my degree. But i know everyone will tell me can de. if i really work super hard lor. nothing is impossible for God.

Hmms. and yea. i now super angry ar. haha! i din know my cousin was at my house. and i found out sth. i scream!!! they come touch my HELLOKITTY! my bed was in a MESS. HELLOKITTY was everywhere of my bed. and i was like. arg! how dare u touch my KITTY. haha! =D and when i saw em, i was like super shock den i wanna wake em up but they'll sleeping cos its alrdy 1 plus. but my mum say don cos later they super noisy. den my bro came back also wanna disturb em but we cant. haha! so tmr morning, we've to die le. cos they gonna disturb us. and anyway. everyone rest early alright! its a new start of e year! and yea. *God Bless You! Jesus Love You and I LOVE You Too! <3