Hmms. Sometime, Human are dono what to say Human. some doesnt realise what they said is hurting ppl ard them. after all, i can cfm or rather say that, im not gonna be so close den before. what ever they said they doesnt think thru and worst still again and again till i decided to igrone what they said. but what to do. human are liddat. so choosing a "right" frens are impt. im disappointed. really disappointed. and i wonder what e 'la' behind every sentence? does it look really good? if that e case 'la' how many times u want bah. someone knows to me 'la' is kinda a super rude word. but its alrights to 'la' w a joking way. but anw. all this, i really give up le. i've nothing to say. not much.

Hmms. woah~! HeyHey! i wont be so careless le. this is e only and last time i lost my house key or rather hanging in my door's locker. =.= can sweat lor. but anw, thank God. so far i didnt get any lecture from my mum. means my ah ma and my bro did tell her. =.=''' so yea. but im still scare that someone is hiding inside my house. i don dare to open my storeroom or look down my bed bottom. later i saw someone inside. and say 'zhai'. hmms. alrights. stop imaging.

Hmms. and anw. another great BS. awesome. Discerning Balance. woah~! loads to say but i got my reason not to blog. but soon i'll open up another blog. stay tune. don worries, its not emo blog. so mean i got 3 blog in total. 2 can view and another 1 no one can view cos its my 'emo blog'. i believe no one wanna see i emo. and i believe no one wanna hear my emo story. so yea.

Hmms. and yea. of cos really wanna thank God for this person. which i don really know her and sud i dono why we become so 'shou' till can cook an egg le. can really click well w her lor. use to be my BS-mates. but now. ahdui~! diff class. no worries. still go back tgt. (: can Jiayou! even u alone in ur cg who go for BS but still, God is w u man! beside u only. and cool. went fellowship w her after BS at BEDOK! see carefully! BEDOK leh. 1st time, got acc and go fellowship at bdk. breakthru alrdy. haha! just feel that wow. really Thank God for her. and really ar. thanks too for fellowshipping at bdk instead of tamp. and i feel much much betta after e talk. and she is super cute that she smsed me sth cute and funny. orh ya. she none other den JOANNE! *ABNN!

Hmms. and ya. man! i really gonna be right back soon! CELESTE HENG KIM HONG, go and reflect and think thru. stand firm ar, don fall and up again and again. u not tired i see alrdy also tired le cos i inside ur body. lazy bumb bumb, don be a lazy gal. Yes! i dare u not to fall. man. my weakness point. what to do? man! wonder how many times im falling. i doesnt know. can someone pls just knock me up, do whatever u can but just don beat, box, kill, punch, pinch, hit cos i scare pain. and yea. its not about anyone else. but e prob its all bcos of ME, MYSELF and I! so what are u suppose to do right now? har, CELESTE? go sleep, watch tv, msn, blogging, talking in e fone, go out ar? ur head ar, tkk! and Yes! i can imaging its near, on e way to breakthru le. and this time round, i can SEE it! make sure i can and not fall!

Hmms. alrights ar. has a long and sweat day for today. so its time to go do what im suspose to do le. don neglect Him! and its 1:14AM and i waking up on 630AM later. woah~ but seriously. i don feel like gg sch cos tmr got 3 hrs break. and i dislike thurs seriously. arg~! but what to do? if i never go, he~llo! i gonna miss out loads of things and soon it'll be my EXAM le. and my GPA isnt that good cos of my good BFD push my GPA down. so PLS everyone who are seeing this, Pray for me for my brain to open up and not close. really need alot alot of wisdom. seriously. eheh. i realise sth. i din request ppl to pray for me de leh. =.= so can i have my 1st request? thank u beri e much man! Loves u all to bits! <3 and yea. 12 more days to 12 AUG!!! woah~ but can i have my one more request? can i pause that day and stop at 18th? or can i have more den 24hrs on 12aug? can, tkk lor.

*its a Long Long Journey where You're w me.

Hmms. *sweat and fainted at e same time. woah~! so crappys! NO! why am i SO careless?? guess what? i left my keys at e door locker. and i realise it when im in lesson just nice gg to start test le. and i was like OH NO! GOD, HOW? but thanks Angie for ur encouragements. and 1st thing, call ppl for HELP. and no ones so i Prayed, called my bro so many times but din pick up. tot he can rush back w his lil lame bike but he's at sch. and later AFD still got test and i think think think and finally i made my mind to go back home. and arg~! so crappys. headache. so finally. reach home. wanna cry when i saw my keys hanging on my door's locker. i was like PRAISE E LORD! THANK GOD! but at e same time, im afraid of entering into my house cos i scare there's someone inside. and smsed my bro and told him i found it. den he called and ask, "things got lost or not. got people inside or not." i was like don scare me la. den i say no lor den he say how come u so cfm den i say cos everything is normal lor den he asked me to check his piggy bank and thank God everything is there! woah~ told my ah ma also but asked her don tell my mum if not haha, mati le. but i think my mum will know it soon. *sweat man.

The moral of e story is 'don be so careless next time'. and everything just relac and PRAYED! so Prayers really do wonders. woah~

Hmms. arg~! CeLeste is not emo ar. but Kim is not emo. but nvm. doesnt know what to say so don say betta. but its alrights, no more 'emo' entires le cos all my 'emo' entires will not be in here le, is at another blog. so no one will be able to know what happen. i believe everyone must be happy cos don need to see my 'emo' entires le. if not very sians, if not no one dare to come in my blog. but i'll still update my blog here if there is any ar. if i never update here means hoho.

Hmms. woah~ today no lesson. NO! wait, lac. i din skip lesson ar. cos cher say don need go sch so don need lor. but still need to wake up early to go work. and work till 330pm lor. and wah. super solid tired and my whole body is pianful. super soild painful. think cos ytd NAFA den so long never execrise le plus i act clever din do steching that why ar. as usual haha, NAFA failed. think i sprain my backbone also but not sure what happen le. think i fall that time during work bah, i cant even bend. nvm, also don care. but really very pain. pain until can laugh and cry at e same time.

Hmms. and arg~! im here to say, i'll stop caring those things which are not related to me de. Kim! just wash ur hands over it! i gave up on them. don be so kpo ar. so whateva it is, just be a good gal and don go bother. i really gave up. say and say but still e old same thing happen again and again. so yea. enough of that. (: and i realise sth. human are funny human. know how to encourage others but doesnt know how to encourage themselve. and ytd, i was talking to my di. and while talking to him, i just feel like im talking to myself liddat. but di, JiaYou alrights? don be discourage! i believe in You! i hope u're feeling betta. and anything just give me a call and i will pick up for sure.

Hmms. ehhehh. what am i doing here? tot i suspose to go study and do my hw. arg~! crappys. end work early cos go home revise. but end up haha. reach home bom on my bed. but cannot cannot must do my hw le. cannot liddat de. ehh. someone can lent me e brain and hands so i don need to do my hw le mah. good idea right? and hor. wah. so crappy. cher bluff my feeling. so irritaing. ytd took H&W. and guess what! im shorter by 2cm! so crappy. back to my normal height. make me so happy that time. ahdui~!

Hmms. and yea! 2 more wks leh. which is 14 more days leh. and 2 more days to e end of JULY. so "slow". den AUG le. arg~! and aug my working hrs super less till i can cry. less hrs mean less paid. if not more paid meh. den somemore, cust always treat us eat 'bao', whatever 'bao' also have. "Chi Bao, ah moh bao, indian bao, malay bao, China bao." what bao u wan also have de, till we're FULL. ahdui~! nvm, sept work more more. (: but anw. yea lor. i miss MANGO. i miss my HELLOKITTY. i miss SUBWAY. i miss CCC at starbuck. i miss MYSELF. alrights alrights. really gonna chaos le, haven chn my shirt yet :x

*I believe You're all i need.

*every night before going to sleep. i'll look up e skies. and i miss my dad. really. i really miss him. i miss him more den everyone else. how i wish i can just hug him right now. i need him. i want him. everytime looking back, just tears. i rmb everything. he piggy-back me down e lil hill on our way back home, brought me his fav kfc wagges, bring me to here and there. but seeing him w all e suffering, its really break my heart. really. im afraid. really afraid. but one thing i thank God that if i go Heaven, i can ensure that he'll be there. but can i turn back to e past? if i can rewind back to e past and i'll just hold him tight. but now i cant. if i'll to say, i only have 12 more hrs to live, and e only person i really wanna see is him. i rmb his face and everything. and just wanna say, "PAPA, I MISS YOU and MOST OF ALL I LOVE YOU!" i regreted i din say this to him. everynight i just wish he will come and take me away from where im now.

Hmms. woah~! let me have a quick quick post before i go prepare to go sch. later got Role-play. sians half way. haha. tell u all one secret. i haven memorize my script. =.= actually have de, ytd on e way to work in e bus, i brought my script along to memorize but end up, all my forcus turn to a baby. so cute but noisy that why forcus on baby. e baby super cute, u know why? cos e baby cry and stop cry and stop. i was like, i never see baby liddat le leh. den nvm, think e baby wanna sleep den end up think his grandparents cant find baby's tutu. den e baby suck his own trumb. den finally e baby settle down, sleep.. but end up instead of memorizing my script, i open up my bible. haha! great choice yea?

Hmms. Babies are always cute. ytd one lil ah moh gal brighten up my day. i smile to her den she say hi to me. i was like. woah~ she say hi to me leh. cos all children hor they scare of 'stranger' de mah. i was like so cute man! and i realise sth. when a child is 'not shy' during a child time den when they grow up, they'll not shy. but when a child is 'shy' during child time den when they grow up, they'll very shy. i can prove it! (: But ahdui, shy shy shy. anyhow.

Hmms. and yea. thank God for all my 'CUTE CUTE frens'. haha. so cute until im laughing and smiling at e same time. *can u see it? my 'BACKSIDE' is alrights le. haha! some of my cute cute frens come and ask me how's my backside den they say 'next time don fall in slient mode'. and me myself i gonna think a while, why slient mode and i rmb e slient mode thing that is in my post and i was like =.= so cute can. im alrights anw. just that think i fall and my hand kena also cos hand pained. and don worries, Joanne! u'll see a FULLY kim today when i met u up. haha. got backside got hands got all parts of my body. wahahaha! and i don like my 'inner body'. always giving me trouble. hate it. im wondering what happen if i cut away every parts of my inner parts of body? den only left my outward parts. i cant imaging. ok, don imaging.. :x

Hmms. oh man! i feeling very bad. im sorry to e someone or rather a few of em. i just wanna avoid. but i don think avoiding is good. but pls don tell me e 3 words thou i know alrdy cos its obvious. if u said, i'll avoid u even more. but i wan to treat it as everything is normal. normal ok. frens frens, nothing more den that. but think i gonna face it, but this is my style u see. i don ever ever, yea. but im trying to chn. sorry sorry, just feel so guilty and bad about it when i rejected. don worries, if ur heart is break and Jesus will heal it!!

*Only You're e one who i can really turn to.

Arg~! i dono anyone got this kind of feeling before. ~feel like crying but there's no tears. (xiang ku you ku bu chu lai). u know u know. this kind of feeling. a kinda werid feeling. so werid till im lost in my heart. so werid till i myself doesnt know what is gg on. so werid till i doesnt feel like gg anywhere. just wanna close my eye, that all. it could be great if i can rest in Peace. every morn im afraid to wake up, wake up and its like do everything all over again. round and round. never ending. but what am i on earth for? e ans i know myself. Darkness may come, Trial seem so long. how i wish, You can just bring me straight to You, beside You. but i know it will never easy.

*You're e Light that i depend on.

Hmms. ahdui~! woah~ Thank God for strength! work FULL SHIFT. fainted. and today i fall. and ouch! wanna fall also dono how to fall properly ar. so irriatating. my backside super solid pain ar. can cry. and no one know i fall cos its slient mode. and i was like wow. Praise e Lord! Hit my hands, Hit my dono which part of my body also and Painful part is my backside. haha, aiyo. nvm de ar, backside everyone also have mah so its alrights to say backside. (: cant even walk properly when i fall. its like ok, nothing just happen. but thank God didnt make till my face, if not i COL. my hands got one red line nvm but no to my face. but say e truth, who could want it to be happen on their face. =.=

Hmms. andand. Amazing man! today okok ar, kinda lazy to wake up den decided to sleep 5min more and again 5 min more den after that wake up go prepare and stuff and after that i realise i gonna be late plus i miss e bus. and im so dono how to say cos i gonna be late and e bus is like ahdui. so nvm. den i prayed lor. and Guess what, Prayer really do wonders. really. trust me. cos i just pray a simple and short prayer, and ask God to strengthen e Bus, Jiayou for e bus and not so many traffic light and ask e driver to drive faster and i pray that i'll not reach bus stop on e dot but i'll reach early so that i can reach my shop eariler. and guess what! e bus went faster and there was no traffic light cos u know why cos my bus pass by Highways de. so a few of traffic light only. and i was like wow.. and surprisely i reach my shop at 9:25AM. wow! im not late and im early! Prayers really works. even just a lil prayers. its e trust and Faith u see.

Hmms. woah~ 11 days more to e end of July, 20 days more to Spore's Birdae and 21 days more to someone special's birdae, and 23 days more to a gal's birdae! woah. AUG is always e most exciting mth. everyone agree right. woah~ so yea. think my Aug work less. sadded. but nvm. so yea lor. its alrights! (: Yea, so ya. tmr sch again den work again. i don like wkdays. lalalala~ nvm ar. don like also must live wkdays. so yea lor. andand. haha! fri gg 'minds cafe'. Hey, my Frens! if u're reading this, join me man! its gonna be fun and great ar. really. i cfm chop u. lets go there relac and chill, studies too stress ar, den go there have fun lor.

*a soft heart.

Hmms. woah~ another day have pass. svc was great! always and always, its so great. word was good. super good. but im upset about sth. why? does e Word really so bored until can felt asleep, until some can become like 'strengthless'? i dono. if u think im talking about u means u, if not mean not u lor. its ur heart, u see. *are u treasuring and respecting e word of God or rather Pst? Pst is flying here and there and we wont be seeing him every wk u see. and we must show him respect by sitting up straight and not those 'bo chap attiude'. im just disappointed.

Hmms. oh man! =.= many days didnt work le. and im starting work again. tell u, its really feel good that when im not working. but e moment i think of work, sians. work is a killer to my everything. but this is e only way. i did imaging when i stop working, think i'll just jump off e sea. Yes, and i will. but think its bcos im studying and working at e same time right now so i'll feel tired and stuff. and have been negected my studies, no time to study or anything. poor studies. but nvm, i've no interest in my studies anw since e day i work le. and its really slowly one day follow by one day, studies is decreasing. but if no work, i think i'll concenrate on my studies even more BUT no way i gonna quit my work.

Hmms. anw. yea lor. was thinking loads of things. this and that, that and this. and e conclusion is ...... end up, im e one who is facing everything and Yes, im tired. but one thing i know that He's w me. how i wish He can come and bring me to His side. and w Him i'll have e Love, protection and care. and everything gonna be so peaceful. wow. so amazing. and yea, in e end. im e one who gonna make e decision to move on and stay on. but e moment i begin to see myself, a diff me. wow. But just like what Pst preach today, e devil will give u another vision. irriatating devil. go away la. devil, u think u very cool ar, u come near me i box u to farfar away den u know.

Hmms. again and again. God, are u promting me about my calling? today 3 ppl ask me about my calling. and i was like what?? what u said? Yea, i wanna. But... i know i gonna paid e Price. scarfice! Yes, i did imaging and i like wow. But i just don dare to think of it when i see of right now. i rather God will use a betta person den me? but anw. woah~ sth just brighter up CELESTE's day. got my new "OM" Card. its super solid nice can, pink colour de leh, ok la, to me its pink. i was shock and i was like hmms?? seriously, that card really make my day. i still rmb, that day when i being promoted by God. wow. looking back. wow wow wow!! now my next aim- MM! woah~ 'NO BUTs!'

*Even storms and mountain tremble, i'll stand w You.

Hmms. woah~ today went Seoul Garden w all e U.R.S ladies. haha. not really all ar. some of us. had a fun and great day w em. and of cos e 'makan', i fainted half way thru e meal. and everyone was like saying 'Kim, u eat so less only den u Full alrdy?' waste money. But i really SUPER Full till i stood up running here and there to help em take food and make my own dessert. *Yummy. and i drank loads of Tom Yum soap. even Yummy thou werid! and i gonna tell u that i wont be gg there anymore or rather 10 years 1 time ar. and oh man! everyone come out, wah. cannot take it. e smile stick to us. and 1st thing in my mind is "PREFUME". at that time just feel like gg home and Bath but too bad, gonna rush off to CGM. (: and so irritating, e smell stick to me everywhere i go.

Hmms. and yea, of cos, CGM is great and awesome. don have word but kinda of PM. woah~ can sense e breakthru gonna happen soon. Yes, and it SOON. arent u excited? Prayers doesnt works when we do not have Faith. Prayers only works when we begin to have Faith. Just a mustard seed will do and we can move every mountian that is infront of us! and Hunger! impt impt. and our MINDSET! this word have been inside my mind for long. "a positive man thinks positive thoughts. a negative man thinks negative thoughts. Our thinking is within our control if we say we can means we can, no mean no. so Our ans is Yes or No? and e prob is if our thinking is negative are we gonna stay negative always or are we gonna chn? and a Positive thinking need Faith to believe." so in short is 'ME MYSELF and I' or rather 'YOU YOURSELVE and YOU.

Hmms. ahdui~! doesnt know what to say. actually. today is a very not bad day for me. didnt feel anything asin emo or whateva ar just feel kinda relac lor. but everything turn my mood away cos of someone. she always w/o fail turn off my mood. i just wish to leave this place ASAP. e only way i can go is HEAVEN. and e only person who i can really turn to is my Daddy God. He understand how i feel. He know what is in my Heart. He knows my everything. But God, im wondering, why why why? i doesnt feel like gg on But its You who let me have e Hope and Peace. i just wish that You'll come down and bring me up to be with u. i don wish to say much about this le. just feel so upset and blahblah! i wondering 'am i really her ??????' arG~! nvm. tired but He's my Strength. sometime i just wish there's someone who is on earth to Love, Care, Concern for me, and yes. indeed there is and e person is none other den my AH MA and my aunties!

*with You, i never be alone.

Hmms. woah~ nth nth. everyone, ignore my previous post. its my itchy hands go and type it out de. pls believe me. and stupid me. arG~! i shouldnt blog it up. im so damn to post it up. should post it at my another blog. know everyone is concern but still i gonna say 'e FINAL decision is in my hand'. so yea. and i gonna say 'BLOG' is actually a very dangerous "things" which we'll reveal everything. i dono about u but i will. so i gonna say i make a very bad decision of blogging. maybe i should set it as Private? good idea man! so no one will ever know what is gg on.

Hmms. but anw. Role Play is coming, NAFA test is coming and new topic of ACC is coming. all is coming. irritating. esp AFD, i haven even really stable some of e topic and cher gonna teach a new topic next mon. i was like. forget it man! and cher is giving us all e previous unit de revision and guess what. clever me, forget all of it le. i cant blame anyone, i cant blame my work or anything. e prob is ME, MYSELF and I! but nvm ar. die die ar. don wanna bother so much. (: lets see how its goes.

Hmms. andand, irriating thurs. i don like thurs. got 3 hrs break. and its was like so boring can. but thanks ANGIE for lending me her PSP. minus away e bored. and went to SW for e 1st time to mark e attendance but cher bring us for a "NAFA walk" show us where to run and here. so crappy. NEW running of 2.4. what a good idea so we doesnt need to run round and round. but NAFA is coming. and i din prepare. nvm ar. i know e end result le. (: and yea lor.

Hmms. woah~ ytd night, i play "Hide & Seek" w my mum. its my bro idea. and just nice when i was in e toliet and he asked me to hide. den my mum was sleeping and wake up sud and seeing no one in my room and she went over to find me all over e house cos she tot i run away from home cos its alrdy midnight and guess what, she even open e window and check whether izz i've committed suidce by jumping off from e house. i was like LOL. e funny thing is i was hiding behind e toliet door and she did open e toilet door and check whether im inside but its was too dark. and she search every where. and my bro bluff her that i went out. and after 5min, she on e light in e toilet and BOO, catch me! i was like laughing like crazy. and i told her, he ask me to hide de. den i hide lor. =D so fun. and oh man, i really SICK of Pizza. everyday there's Pizza in my house cos my bro work in Pizza Hut's Delivery man now, and fainted. w/o failed everyday got pizza, thats when i getting fatter and fatter. :x

*Everynight im waiting for You to bring me over to Your side.

Hmms. oh man! Kim wants to CRY le la! cannot take it! listen up, not bcos she's emo. everyday i really dragging myself to sch. if i know i should have not go to HNitec. what's e prob right now? i really dono. izz bcos of my work. yea. i can say that mostly is bcos im working right now so i don have e chance to study much. and i'll faint la, after work i alrdy so Tired le den get home alrdy so late, i really have no mood to study. and i really wanna cry le. and ppl was asking me to quit my work, and my ans to them is 'NONO!' i wont quit if i quit how? but u think i'll really wan to work? if i'll given a choice, i'll choose not to work cos its really tired and it'll for sure affect ur studies de.

Hmms. look at me right now. im in e midst of really crying out le. i cant imaging if i never work. den i'll be staying at home 24/7, never go out, so don need waste transport fee. arG~! what to do?? it is proven that it affect my studies le. work is a devil to my studies. and now its only e 1st term of e course, and seem like im dying soon. i cant imaging if i really drop out e sch. really, pls don imaging w me. cos i know everyone will ask me to cont de. and 1% will support me cos they fall under e caterory of 'thinking of quitting sch'. now HNitec cant le, i can don dream of gg oversea to study le. or rather say poly 1st. Yea, my dream is to go to oversea to study since young but now, ha~! think also don think about it. rubbish! and i gonna say one thing now, 'KIM IS NOT GG TO FURTHER HER STUDIES ANYMORE, *if wonders really happen, u can smile if she will to graudate from HNitec 1st'. if not, HA~! i really gonna think loads loads before i really make FINAL decision and no one can stop me if i'll to make e FINAL decision.

*Let Your strength guide my feet.

Hmms. today no work. kinda feel so happy cos 1st time since i start working i've been working mon tues fri non-stop but now. tues never work, fri not working also cos got cgm. and really ar. feel so u know u know. and of cos i din waste my free tues, went out w 3 guyz, 3 bro. met Ed and Joel 1st and went to eat swenson ice-cream, feel so happy. craving for ice-cream. and after that went to meet my MISSED PaPa Terry. and had fun thou and ate too much today! cannot cannot. MUST STOP eating!

Hmms. but also, heard a bad news or rather a good news. dono whether want to cry or smile, seriously. i do not know what to say. i feel sad, real sad. know that we cant always be tgt. sure gonna leave each other someday. and one by one is leaving, seeing those who totally leave and not coming back, make me even more sad. and those who are not same cg as me. but all i can is to still cont e race lor. but im really sad. seriously. i can say he is e one in e cg who im close w. still rmb e 1st time i went in and he's e one who talk to me. and when im down or anything, he is e one who knows it. and he is e one who encourage me alot alot more den others. and i really dono what to say. but i believe he is gg to grow stronger den eva and gonna shine for Jesus ever more. and now i doesnt know who to turn to le. its like so werid. but its alright, still e same Heavenly Father, same church BUT u know u know. i thank u for all e memories.

Hmms. alrights bah. sorry everyone for being so "EMO". no, actually im not emo lor. dono who say i emo de. im alrights de ok. arG~! nvm. anw, today went to not really say 'shopping' ar. arG~! wanna buy this and that. but all i want is "IPOD TOUCH!' saw it ar Harvey Norman, oh man! its like so ""cheap"" can. but i gave up, cos i really cant afford. its like my one mth paid also cannot reach lor. saw it at 400++ but they said Sim Lim sell more cheaper. but think think ar, if use my paid hor, den fainted lor. but nvm ar. don buy ar cos its my 'wants' not needs. BUT I REALLY WANTS IT NAH! lalala. IPOD TOUCH or PSP? ah bush~ stop it. nvm. not mine means not mine. don urgue. but i know one thing is mine, is myself! aiyo. nvm ar.

Hmms. today my bro's birdae. opps. wanna buy cake for him actually but sad he gonna work and if i really buy and its so werid cos i never ever in my life buy cake for him de. but nvm ar, he got GF le. wonder what his gf buy for him. haha, im not kpo alrights. but haha! 4 more wks! woah~ just 4 more wks. im not excited! nvm ar. National Day also reaching le. and means hols is coming. and means i gonna work more. and means i gonna get more paid. and means my bank is increasing just one time and decreasing super fast? but nvm. nvm de. arG~! anw, tmr sch. so sians. nvm. (:

*Shower me w Your Loves.

Hmms. woah~ Today is Monday. ehh, nono. rephrase. Its Tuesday cos now is 12:48AM le. and yea. of cos, im tired. and sch ar sch. im thinking when does it going to stop? today really wanna sleep when cher is teaching BFD. sians bored and tired. and i cant believe that Kim will fall asleep in e Bus. today on e way to work, slept in bus. 1st in my 17th life, i never ever sleep in e bus. and today really dong~! and i was like, "Kim! wake up. later u miss ur stop, i tell u im gonna LOL at u man!" but also good la. cos i don need go work, i hope? ButBut. arg~! even if i did i think i also diedie must go work.

Hmms. and i just wanna find excuses not to go to work. but end up i went cos 'NO EXCUSES'! ehh. asin i mean cannot make Excuses de. and plus also of e 'money'. think of it, arG~! betta go. den end up, was late for work. cos HARI ar, box him den he know. tot he'll dismiss early but end up no. cos he always end early de. but today is a special day that he teach 3unit in a goal. and like i wanna sleep le and i just feel like shouting out 'HARI, can we go now?' haha! but of cos, i never cos im guai. and yea, im so Happy cos tmr which is today no work! and today got one werid lady came into e shop and can say she today not her day ar. cos every shoe she take don have her size. and she ask will it expand after afew days den she said to me 'don bluff me leh, if not i SUE u. no shoe den u ask me come in for what?' i was like saying in my heart He~llo! i never ask u come in is u come in de. and cos e shoe is popular so many ppl buy. Den i went in and told my In-charge den she come out. ButBut, haha! e lady is joking de. relac. and thats Awaken me. she went off w a 'thank u and a smile' to me. i was like *d0ts.

Hmms. and i doesnt know why just no one understand how i feel? so tired. e words pieces thru my heart when i heard it. Do i have Burden and concern? if we doesnt feel burden we wont be suggesting anything. or issit never suggest anything mean burden? alrights den, next time wont suggest anything. i wonder Do anyone see this heart? No, not anyone! im not feeling tired but just that why don Human understand? Sometime some ppl may say words that can pieces thru ur heart and really break de. sometime i wonder and wonder and yea lor. how i wish now is that 'You will come and bring me over to Your side.' when i fall, You're behind me. i can turn to no one But You alone. Tears begin to flow down when im hearing e song "Heart of a Servant."

*My eyes set on You in this race that i run.

Hmms. woah~ today ar. its SUNDAY! But i dislike tmr which is Monday. irritating monday, bored monday. sch again. im looking forward to my hols. can free from sch means that exam is coming? *fainted. left a few wks u know. and i don even bother. :x cos once i open e book and fainted le. but nvm. and im dragging myself to sch every single day.

Hmms. not sure what to blog le. cos i feel so tired now. arg~! BUT still have to do my hw which i doesnt know how to do. ACC ACC ACC!!! see e numbers till sians le. yea, i like maths but this make me dislike maths le. Thank God i never choose ACCOUNTING! if not ar, Kim is fainted half way thru.

Hmms. there're certain things which im VERY burnened(dono hwo to spell ar). im very worried about one person whom he is ALWAYS here for me when im down, he's there just like my Pa lor. and yea, indeed he really my "Papa-in-Christ". and seeing him like MIA. and im really worried. and i feel so sad that i never be there for him. and i dono what to do BUT finally, He replied my msg after 1 week which i called him everyday and msg. and i just feel so tired of contacting all those MIAing ppl and ya lor. everyone just din ans and reply and really i just feel like Stop calling them and msg them. and i told God that im tired, i give up in calling them le. But God know what is in my heart, and He replied just a simple msg. But all i can do now, is to pray for him and e rest. now i know if a person MIA, e person will NOT ans/reply e call. i cant imaging i don ans call/reply. no way. i cant even imaging.

Hmms. and yea. i WANT & NEED a *IPOD TOUCH*! but its like so "cheap" ar. i really want it leh. seriously. thou now i have one MP3 but aiyo. e song is like so less and hear and hear e same old thing. until i know which song is coming next le. and it only can put limited song only. and i really craving for it badly man! and im telling someone 'will e IPOD TOUCH drop down from Heaven and put it into my hands?' no, its impossible. i know ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE W GOD but haha i don have such Faith to believe that it will drop down just liddat ar. but aiyo. nvm ar. and alot of question is in my mind right now. nvm ar.

*How Great it is to be in Your Presense.

Hmms. Woah~ Hey! First of all. thanks to ppl who msg me and ur taggy. i appreciate it but Listen up, Kim will be alrights. But to me, its kinda a Big Bang. i didnt know. really. im kinda disappointed upset about it BUT still i thank God for e result. i do not know how to say but yea lor. i dono u know how i feel but seriously i do not how to say ButBut Prayers really works. and im really sad and i went home and cried so badly den eva. and i prayed. i really begin to let go every disppointment and sadness into His Hands. thou im kinda of blaming Him. But ya lor. and sud this sentence came into my mind. "God will heal u when u begin to let Him heal u." so just lift everything into His Lovely hands. and yea. i'll be alrights!

Hmms. and yea. past few days alrights ar. sch work sch work lor. what can i do? sch sians work tired. i wonder if i stayed at home and wait for money to drop down from Heaven, will it happen? will. tkk lor. and im so happy that i got my paid le! woah~ But sians ar. cos come and go. paid this and that. its super irritating. but 1 thing that i don feel irritating is i paid my tithe! cos i believe God will Bless me so i'll be a Blessing to others. andand, finally. Kim has brought one book. all in her 17th life. she have brought one and only book. BUT more to come. if can i'll get 1book in every 2 mths. so Yea! so excited. see, Kim is so super solid guai can. But can i throw away my module notes and read my bible and books only? *pls breathe if u say yes. yes, i know u're breathing. thank u!

Hmms. woah~ 29 more days to a special person birdae and also 31 more days. counting down. just 1 mth. and woah~ 18th. waiting for that day. feel so ADULT. yes, is ADULT. saw it? aiyo. anw. im adult alrdy mah. everyone agree right, i know i know. thank u thank u. just 31 more days. but can i stop at 18th forever? Yes, can. of cos can. arg~! but nvm ar. 18th is good. and listen up everyone. 18th not 14th, 15th or anything below. alrights? i know im tall. but don judge my ages w my tallest. Yea? (: andand, woah~ 8-11aug i got hols, 5 days of hols. 8aug sch cele NDP but of cos kim is a guai gal so she didnt go lor. and ya lor. so cool. but no sch should i go work? book Kim NOW before its too late, before i tell my Boss about my Shedule of Aug. but seriously, don feel like working e whole AUG. ~CeLeste Heng Kim Hong Loves 12th Aug!

Hmms. arg~! i wanna go shopping. so long i never go for shopping. now i got my paid and im so excited of gg shopping BUT arg~! nvm. now i just feel like eating 'MANGO, ice cream, subway, HelloKitty and more!' But cant cant. FAT alrdy la. Fat by 1kg. =.= and guess what, NAFA test is coming, 2 more weeks only! arg~! nvm ar. fail jiu fail lor cos failed so many times le. haha! nvm ar. Si Le La! some ppl say i Fat alrdy some ppl say i not Fat alrdy. who to believe? arg~! nvm. i still think i Fat alrdy! see ar, never join vball, become fat alrdy. But seriously. im missing vball so much! feel like joining back BUT yea lor. if i join back right, i wonder if i still have 'time'.

*im Flying in e skies tgt w You.

Hmms. woah~! arg~! im so tired. this few days slept quite less. 2days add up also not more den 10hrs. one word to say im tired. but thank God for strength ar. w/o Him i think i'll be dead right now. but still can blog ar. few days i haven been updating. cos busy w some stuff. :x and really busy till got no time to go peepee. (: im so super slow can, do one directory also do like so slow and do more den 4hrs. haha. u know why. cos i was talking in e fone w 3 diff ppl w 3 diff calls mean this person hang and next call and so on, forever talking in e fone. and den on msn also and listen song and smsing also. see, Gals can multi-task de.


Hmms. aiyo. but quite disappointed. one names spell wrongly and its not i type wrongly its i always spell as that and i don even know its wrong spelling. and quite simple thou. Kim is not a Good Creative person. so PLS don ask me do anything related to creativity de. i'll box u man! =D don worries. let me box once will do. (: arg~! nvm. i alrdy prepare in my heart to get scolded de. so its alrights. *smile. everything gonna be alright! Yea?

Hmms. Yea. during past few days, its was great la. i couldnt explain how good was it. CGC's mtg, CGM, svc w Pst Mark Connell. and busy doing CG's stuff. *pengz. CGC's mtg was awesome, once again got a new revelation. and i pray and i pray hard that i wont think of any silly negative thoughts again. GET LOST, YOU DEVIL! and while worshipping, i see a heart shape that is in my eye. and its always in my eyes. God, what are u trying to tell me? u Love me? or i need to Love You more? and God, u asked me to Give so that u'll multiply it but Lord, what can i give? Loves? times? sacrifice? Hmms. question and question have been in my mind. but i know God will ans my question. (:

Hmms. and arg~! tmr sch start. and ALL of us was like. arg~! sch again. how? tired, sians leh. don feel like gg leh. arg~! my next hols will be on 2nd wk of sept. so long! and aug no hols except National Day. sians. arg~! and i scare of my BFD result. think tmr should know le. cher say everyone did very well and thats good but i scare i cant get 'A'. cos not many can get 'A'. arg~! nvm, Lord, i trust in You. Faith ar. u see. My Faith. (: haha. aiyo. sians. hw not yet done. done some. but haha. still quite a number of it din done so u can imaging its quite alot. but its alrights. lets see how tmr. (: i can do nth but in everything by Prayer. (: now 1st wk of July le. 5 more wks. (: 18th 18th quick come and stop there!

*even when i failed, You're there.

Hmms. woah~ after 3 weeks, finally got BS. went for my make-up for FT1-Lesson 1. haha. finally completed my FT1 but haven take quiz but im so happy. finally, after so 9876543210 i completed my FT1, still got FT2 ar. (: and yea, of cos its awesome again. learn so much. its just so awesome. my foundation. wanna blog about it, a new revelation to me. But in short is 'no matter what happen, my Promise w God that i will NOT leave Him'. be it frens or any one who have hurt or anything, my walk w Him will sure cont till e day i die. "how strong is my foundation? if a super solid wind just blow by will i fall or i'll cont standing down there?" yea, again and again, got stupid thoughts of leaving here and there but hey devil! i wont let u catch me. u wanna catch me, tkk! u come near me, i box u!

Hmms. woah~! anw anw. i wont be working until next mon. aiyo. sad and happy at e same time. happy cos can don work but sad bcos no paid of cos. but still Thank God. and yea. today at work receive some calls and msg, sians alot. see and listen alrdy make me don wanna work, but end up leave work early just to get some stuff but in e end never get. arg~! was rather dono what to say ar. but nvm ar. past alrdy. but anw, thanks bro ED for e HELLOKITTY's pokky biscuit and STARBUCKS! woah~ guess what, thats my dinner. =D serious. and i know, u're waiting for my ice-cream right. don tell me u wan ah pek's ice-cream? =D

Hmms. and yea. Thank God for strength, super sleepy in e morn butbut "e Joy of e Lord is my Strength!" i prayed a short prayer and im not tired le. woah~ and hor. aiyo. today stomach and head not feeling well also. so went to toilet quite a few times lor. and hor, clever kim still eat TOM YUM magiee mee for lunch. haha! but nvm ar. by Faith ar. (: but anw. yea lor. i forgot what to blog le. and yea, AUG is reaching! is ard e corner ar. super impt mths. cos its spore birdae mah. and aiyo. its Joanne's birdae too! (: ahdui, not sure whether wanna take off mah. if i don take off, think ALOT ppl will come kill me.

Hmms. and arg~! im still struggling w some things. but i can choose to just stop what im doing right now and just leave. or rather i'll say, i'll just leave but i wont leave God. everyweek still go into God's of Presence. but i think i've given up alrdy. im just tired of calling and msging em. all i wan is to serve Him, thats all. but its seem like all has broken into pieces. which they broke it. and even ppl who is closest w u, may seem to hurt u. im wondering when does it gonna stop?

*i'll follow You. i'll follow You.

Hmms. LaLaLa~! Thank God for strength today, really. work 13hrs today. never work for so long before, and i was like. si le la. plus ytd night talk to someone for 2hrs and near to 2am den sleep and wake up at 7am. so =.= talks craps and loads of things. really =.= and its has been a long long time since we talk for so long le, hor bro? haha! =D but i don care, u must call me next time.



Hmms. and yea. thank God for strength today ar. really, was really sleepy and blahblah. wanna sleep in e bus BUT instead of sleeping i read my Bible! and God remind me again of sth again. and yea. really. seriously. of cos today 1st July. woah~ i din realise 6mths have past. and now JULY le. soon AUG gonna reach le. 42 more days! M18 lor, can go clubbing see M18 and blahblah. but if u know me well, i wont go to clubbing and all that de. so yea. But i looking forward to my 18 not cos of any present which i know every year will be e same. but cos im 18th! 18 can do alot of things hor. but 21 is e most best de. (:


Hmms. andand. today 9am reach workplace and haha. me and qi is e topic of e day. we're crazy to e max! woah~ we took fotos. and i shall uploads up! haha. but some only. if not my blog bom w fotos. and yea, anw, e foto brighten me up. andand, im eating pizza now! anand, thanks yingjie too!

*this is why i kept talking fotos. (:

*Our mummy.

*Oh yea. we're hardworking. *its just half of it only. *we're busy working. *and yes. we're ALWAYS busy. (: *my baby for e day. =D