Hmms. Oh Daddy God! enlarge my capacity. enlarge my mind. enlarge my strength. enlarge my Love. enlarge my Heart. enlarge my thoughts. what can i really do for You? im in e midst of giving up everything, yes and i mean EVERYTHING in my life. my studies, my CGC, my life or even my walk w God. there's only one word in my mind right now "give up!" just flash thru me always and i cant get rid of it! orh. Crappy! Devil hit and i fall, hit and fall. Stupid Devil! GO AWAY! don pour negative thoughts into my mind! and was blogging about Giving up and ytd during svc and today CGM, God spoke to me so many times. "DO NOT GIVE UP..."

But God, are u there? im tired, im disappointed, im sad, im discouarge, im stress by certain things of my life again and again. and i really feel so tired and burned up. i came to a point where my mind is mindless. e moment i begin to think my head hurts. and ya, of cos everyone will get tired. who on earth wont get tired de? and yea. Ytd Pst Tan preach a very good msg. e last point hit my heart so strong. "Example of Brokeness". all this im gg thru right now is an example to people. But Kim, are u gonna cont to move on or just give up? everything happen for a reason. i must Give Thanks in ALL my circumstance. (:

and Beside that. think its my last time to tell anyone what is gg on in my life and how i feel. im SORRY to trouble those i've told my probs to. and i knows no one will ever want to hear of it. and everyone is tired of hearing. and still e best things is to keep everything to myself. that e only ways i can find to share my probs. don say to me "its alrights, just tell me, im willing to listen". oh Craps! fine. i wont share anymore. no more. i wont bother anyone anymore, don worries. (:

and its so hard to please Human. what to do, God? i talk and no talk also say. and nvm ar. think i just don talk so much. so keep quite and be back e kim u all see e 1st time. and e Bible say, "Please God and not man!" i should please God instead. and yea. just watch finish e charity show for e earthquake show. and really must keep them in Prayers, seriously. Heart break when see e show and its really touching. and really Thank God that Spore is a 'safe' country. and i really feel burden for them but feeling burden w/o doing anything is meaningless is helpless. and how i wish i can just go there to help them but all i can do is call to donation. and i've donated! every cents mean alot to them now. and God say, "if u've lent to e Poor, You're lending it to e Lord". Lord, Bless me more so that i can be a Blessing to others.

*You told me who i am. im Yours.