Hmms. time passes. a wind just blow pass me. CNY over lor. and today is Vday. nothing much for me. actually gg out w CG but kinda of lazy and tired but also might be gg out. still decising who to meet CG or ??? but decide later cos im tired. but in e end its still a day passes by. everyday is just a day for me even 12Aug. did i live life to e fullest? one day passes one day. days just passed liddat. am i doing anything? what can i do? im living a boring life. Mon-work. Tues-work. Wed-work+BS. Thurs-work. Fri-CG. Sat-Svc. Sun-Free!! and i realise that my life is only about God. BS, CG and svc only. and work. nth else. someone once asked me, 'what u normally do beside church staff?' and i think and think, like don have le leh. but if sch re-open still e same. only work chn to sch. imaging now i do not know about God. can u imaging how BORED im? work study work study. no life. and all e temp staff in e office is BORED, even 2 of them quit le.

and im getting lazy and lazier each day. that is bcos why there is no updates in my blog. actually have. i updated and i deleted. now u know how bored am i le mah. no ar, cos e entires which i wrote abit dono what to say ar so i deleted!! and ya, im seriously getting lazier as each day goes by. maybe its bcos of e things which i face now. i lazy to do things, i lazy to go work. i lazy to go anywhere. just wanna stay in bed and sleep and forever don wake up. thats e best!! and wait or my Daddy God to Bring me home.

things are not going well as well. tired of what im doing right now. its never easy. now i know a leaders position le. i admire those leaders. and i know what are my weakness. weakness alot alot. but how about strength? no. i dont. one hit by a stone, i fall. terribly fall. and nothing can lift me up. cos its has been again and again till im seriously very sick and tired le. tot i can but i fall. don tot. if i tot, it will never come true. tot, assume. this 2 will harm u. and i tot i'll get scolding by my boss, by yuzhen. but end up. no, i never get scolding. seriously i dono how. i tot i say sth wrong but end up get no scolding which i tot will get scolding for sure but things turn diff way.

and this song keep entering my mind non-stop. just like e sound in my ear. and ya, went back to e doc again and he say need to see specialist. den dono what scan my head see whether got anything. aiya. nth de lor, everytime also nth de. i don intend to go see cos watse money. if really my head got prob den die lor. and ya, e song is "I've decided to follow Jesus, No turning back, no turning back." i do not know why. at times. i may want to turn back but look at every suitation im still right here. and think of Jesus dieing on e Cross for us. it even a BIGBIG sacrifice. and i really dono. don wish to say. im just feeling down, discouarage by certain things. IM TIRED!

*a Right Heart and a Right Mind.