Hmms. been down w 'stress, disappointed, discourage, headache, worries, tired etc' this few weeks. or rather mths. didnt get my heart and mind right. Stress up w loads of things. disappointed w loads of things in my CGC. discourage by some ppl. headache of my sickness that i having now. worries about my CGC, worries about my check-up in a few weeks times, worries about loads of things. tired of all e things im doing. all this is so negative. really negative. did i really trust in God? if i do, all this thoughts couldnt been dwelling in me for that long. and no one really know what im gg thru all this period. im keeping all inside of me. i never release to God. and never lift up to Him which i last time use to.

i really have to ask myself. "what is happening?" what is blocking e journey? i have to ask myself to wake up from e all e "thoughts" that i have now. i only have one mind. ya, people may hurts me but Daddy God wont. People Hurts my heart but Jesus Heal my Heart. and till now, i miss W220! i would tell God that if time can rewind, i could treasure everyone in w220 even more. Love them even more. They're a Family that really is a "Family". i found JOY in them. im still living in w220 world.

Hmms. and have been headache and stuff liddat everyday w/o fail. dono what is happening in my body also. but nvm. make sure i'll be alright before sch start! if not i throw away all my HELLOKITTY which is impossible la. (: and my mum asked me to throw away my Hellokitty. den i !@#$!@#$ *ah bushs! NO WAY im gonna throw. and wake up in e morning today and Yea, this song which we sang during svc kept in my mind. Im a fren of God! He's my Fren. MY Forever Fren. My Dear Fren. My Lovely Fren.

*a Rojar mind.