Hmms. *sleepy. look at e time now. its 12:09am! (: Surprise im still awake? ehh. cos tmr no work mah. today i half day also. do until boss have nth for me to do BUT mon need to go back. and she said actually got one thing to do is to call ppl to double check their info. and i was like. huh. serious bo. i don wan calling de leh. i sians alot alot. actually she asked 'can'. actually i want say can i say don wan. but aiyo. and somemore my rec this few weeks. SUPER less and i said again. its SUPER! din even hit 100 or rather din even hit 50! u know. thats less. SUPER! and can u imaging my highest rec was 379! and i was like. last months le leh. haiis. i dono ar.

Hmms. But still. Thank God for e previous paid. cos i got extra $100. (: Praise e Lord! i dono why. and i asked my collegues they say their one is same as what they counted. and i was like saying in my Heart "Thank You Jesus!" (:

Hmms. and Yea. i also dono what to say cos im half dead now. and there're things in my mind. i feel so dono what to say ar. *Sorry Daddy God. there're things that i cant explain/tell but He know everything in my heart. i feel so 'not right' towards God. i fail to do what i need to do. am i a CGC? am i doing my part? am i running toward God's vision? i fall bcos of very lil things like members didnt accountibilty and stuff liddat. and i fall cos of such a lil things. but im cheer up once again when members begin to be accountable. and there was a few times that i told God "im giving up this position". and i really mean it and i told myself i'll tell CGL about it that i've alrdy decide. but something just pop up that i cant leave this and run away. and seriously i dono how le. stressed up.

Hmms. still thinking of W220. how i wish.. i still not yet step out of my "W220" zone. im still living in w220 world where i can really find what is a Family and Love from them. i miss Jiahui's preaching, i miss e Love in w220. i cant find any betta at anywhere but only them. Hmms. alright! nvm. think im gonna be pig le. and i 4 need to wake up again to close my hp. cos need charge for 8hr. =.=''' and finally changed my hp! *$0 but 2 year contract. =.=''' same num. don wanna change my num so that he can find me.

*renewing heart.