Hmms. thanks for concern. (: Yea. nth will happen to me de. everytime also liddat and nth happen. im only scaring myself. Fear not for He's w me. but i hope 20March will not so fast reach as i really don wanna go check up. as i seriously 1st time go hospital and check up in my 17 years life. budden when i was a baby not same la and visit people of cos not same. but i scare i ended up in hospital. ehh, stupid kim. ok, im scaring myself only.

budden im wondering, how come e one who is closer to u doesnt really care about u but e one who doesnt have related to u care about u like frens. doesnt care about ur health and stuff. for me, i think that way. ok, can say she doesnt know anything cos i never tell her but e fact is she know my ear got sound and she don even bother to ask or anything. and doesnt know i gg check up but she know e doc gave me a letter. and all she know is to nag me and give her _______. which i rather give to God. so what if my paid is more den her. but i plan to give her le. but she say so less. and i was like. Transport fee, sch fee i need to pay by myself and all my life this is e 1st time i pay my sch fee. and whateva i do, doesnt seem good in her eyes la. everything is badbadbad. no matter how i chn, she don see it. But God does.

and Special Thanks to Yuzhen ar. went her house after OPM to stay over. thanks for e "Milo" and Bread w Egg and ham. i feel so Loved. just like a Motherly Loves. and i realise only my ah ma, my aunties will do all this for me only. but e who one is my real doesnt. how i wish all this is my Mother. but e fact is e fact. so ya.

Finally starting sch in april and no work! means no salary. haiis. dono what im thinking. when working want to go study, when study want go work. anw. i want to chiong for this mth before i end work cos sch start never work le. so all e paid can bear w me thru all this years and also so sad. cannot buy what i want. ):

*My Desire is to be w You.