Hmms. days and days, weeks and weeks have pass by. and i still couldnt get rid of my 'emo'. all my disappointment, sadness, and everything still inside my heart. my Joy has run away cos of all this. tiredtiredtired. so tired to think of all thing. which are not meant to think. so sick of it. i couldnt breathe alrdy cos my heart is full of all this. actually is 100% of Joy, passion, excitement. and now i don think have. not even 0.01%. no. Stress up in everything in my life. how i wish i could left this world with peace. everytime when i think of e past, it really diff. totally not e same, but now, look am i right now. i don even know who am i le. a gal with like no life le?

there was once i asked God, "God, Why? how come u put me in this kind of life. with this kind of family." God im really tired. and how i wish i could just go straight to Heaven and find You? and when i saw You, i'll Hug You super tight and i'll wept. and something told me that, im not a Good Child. When Jesus saw me He wont Hug me he'll push me away. and im left all alone. no one Loves me. My Parents never Loves me. Everyone will say, Yes, They do but only they never show, no, don tell me all this. i heard until i don wanna hear le. and now, Daddy God, if u don wan me, who could want me? i feel that im all alone in e darkness like no body child. Hmms. and everything everything has gone case. I NEED YOU! Falling at Your Feet! Daddy God, I Just need You! Many say im emo this few days. actually im not emo, im acting. *like real*.

now all i wan to do or rather where i wan to go is 'BEACH!' i wan to shout everything out! *head pain for dono how many days le. my old sickness have return back. feel like vomiting and my head super giddy. not got alrdy hor! please! is i dono why also, i last time kept having this type of prob. never go see doctor cos mum sure say waste money. so ya. gonna go for next lesson le. Buaii!