Hmms. Everything seem to be very mess up! i've really come to e point le. seriously, some may know that i thinking of 'BS(not Bible study)' le. cos i told them, but think of that i tell myself, im really stupid to tell them cos they'll sure know de mahs. but seriously, im serious about it. now, im not joking of that but i really serious about it. some ppl will sure ask me what happen BUT im so sorry, i wont tell anyone de. i don intent to tell anyone what is going on or rather how i feel. i feel that i have lost e passion le. budden e funny thing is i dono why i still like u know now it has become a habit to help, to call up ppl, fellowship, to go for CGM and svc. its a habit. budden now, when i think of 'BS' den i cant get out of my hand cos my hand, my heart is like. like what i told u, it has become a habit. and ytd night, sud something came into my mind that 'why'? 'no point'?

and i really have been 'emo' for dono how many weeks le. emo emo go away, don come again! how i wish, i can have loads of money, and i'll fly to a place where no one can find me. a place where i can be alone. and for sure i wont go Japan cos i know most of them know that my Dream country is there cos there got HelloKitty mahs. cos they will sure go there find me if i really have loads of money. But instead i'll go to a place where no one can find me. But too bad, i just don have the money. =(

and i 'decided' to go to work on sat n sun. but of cos i will know what will happen. what thing i'll lose out. my Love for God will fade. my passion, my everything. But now, im thinking of 'BS' le. so i can use "work" as an excuse. and ya. its not right! BUT..... as i say everythign is MESS up. i don even know what im doing now. or rather what im thinking now.

*andand Guess what! Final exam alrdy know le. it on dec e 1st week. wahs. everyone heard le. faint! seriously. FastFastFast!! im worries for my exam! arghh! BEO den follow by POA. both haiis. nvm. Study Hard!