Saturday, October 20, 2007 @6:44 PM
Hmms. Surprise? im here to update. Hmms. im at at my cousin house. Sian, really sians. actually every sat there is CG but CG is counted as ytd bahs. so ya lor. but actually today susppose to meet up w terry for lunch de den in e end cancel so ya lor. im free! super free! so ya, den i was thinking, arghhs! Sians. den i decided to follow my mum go my aunties house. so im here. My com really cannot make it. seriously. i really wanna burn my com. arghh! so i gave up my com le. Hmms. and ya, a few more week. just a few more weeks. God, i may know where im be le. But God, it is ur decision . even i say i don wan. God, im rejecting u. God. i know u've place me at there mean im there le. t1s ti heard le, ya, i may don wanna go. e 1st reaction is 'GOD!'. i don wan. But God, it ur choice, i'll follow. at 1s ti told myself, i don wan to go alrdy, but God, i go bcos of You not cos of ppl. although ther'll be ppl im close with but no one no what im thinking. But i tell myself that i cant stay in one place forever. someday, we will mutiply and go to other way. But God. It is You who im following. no one else. Hmms. and things arent just not right. im feeling EMO whenever im all alone! so cannot make it. i HATE it! Yes, i HATE this. when im all alone, i'll EMO. i'll think of those thing which im not suspose to think. and i'll cry.everytime i'll use 'my smile' to cover away 'my sadness'. why? cos i don wan ppl to know im Sad. i don wan ppl to see that im EMO. Emo and sadness is a devil. and im surferring under it. so irritating! and so ya. nth will heal my heart. NOTHING. i justneed to Touch from You, God! Help me. i'll Trust in You. whenever im afraid, i'll trust in You!
