*Sadness+Scolding=SuperDown=Depression.
*Gastric+Hold in my Heart=Inner pain=Need Inner Healing.

O Lord! i need Your Healing Right now. Im nothing. O Lord, im thinking and thinking again. am i really make a mistake that i've receive You? O Lord! Why do You Leave me all alone. i know in Your words said You'll never leave us alone or forsake us But O Lord! i left nothing, i left nobody But You alone and now You left me all alone. WHY, O Lord! No one Love me. i think and i think and all this came into my mind. and i wept. i wept non-stop for 1 hour. its my longest tears. my tears are just like Tapping water. flowing down non-stop. i cant even stop it. i couldnt close e tap. its so hard and so diff, O Lord! am i really so Bad until You doesnt want me? O Lord! Why? That not me! i ever tot that i've alrdy Baptism le and i tot i'll become more HAPPY den ever. But things arent that den i tot. during this Journey, i tot i'll become MORE HAPPIER. but Lord! WHY? Everytime i try to be Happy But its just a few min only. after reaching home, im totally a Diff person that think alot. i don wan to think of those RUBBISH. i dono how and i dono why. O Lord! How i wish that i can climb to e tallest of e flat and u could saw me. Just like one of e person in e Bible. He Climb to e Tree just to see You, just to let u see his attention. How i wish How i wish, O Lord!

`Nothing can Heal me right now. and i decided to find a job le. but not sure sat and sun will be working. so ya. i don wanna care anything le. anything, please don tell me. cos i don care anything. and please don assume anymore, GUYZ! `