Hmms. Finally! my grooming exam is over and over le. but there's another exam coming. dono what "handshake" de. so *d0ts. but its ok. don need use any money can le. =X if not really gonna find job le. =X but anyway. e exam is alright. cher say "my bag is too big for me cos e bag is bigger den me and e bag not suitable for interview. and my heal TOO short. =X cos im too short alrdy must wear even high de. =X aiyo. i sians half way. budden also truth la, cos im SHORT mahs. =X

Hmms. i wonder where he's now? he might be at somewhere in e world? i pray that he's still alive. God, i pray that You'll protect Him. God, You don need take cares of me But please take cares of Him for me. Please, Lord! i doesnt know what im thinking. when he never call me, i just MISS him. But when he call me, i scare until like dono what liddat. what happen? sometime i'll always tell myself that i hate e police. budden i somehow realise that it is good. BUT still there's no change. still contiune. liddat and liddat. why in e world, got that "things". and all along, he's all alone by himself. did i ever care for him? did i ever do my part? i din, i din. my heart breaks when i see him entering e hospital, and e blood and e pain although he never show. But i know! u know how i wish i can take over his place and how i wish i'll be e one who go to hospital. But now, i don even know where he is le. den i should be happy? cos no longer, no one disturb me or anything le. But somehow, i just miss him. everytime someone could just tell me about him, i'll just like don care liddat but actually u doesnt know what is in my heart. budden i really dono what happen. no one could understand. But he really break my heart cos he lie to me again and again. and i tell myself i could never believe him again.

*i could never be happy if i have all e problems, troubles, sadness, stress and everything everything. and sch i don even know i will be able to get into Higher Nitec. cos this semester de module really kinda hard. really cannot make it. i really scare. and i really stress and worries of my studies, my life, my walk with God. cant even get into my mind. no matter how i study also couldnt get into my mind. dono what "Brain" i have. Prepare to die lor. im really very tired of all this things le. i wanna get rid of all this troubles! everynight, tears are just like tapping water. flowing loads of water in my eye. soon you'll see Kim's eye gonna get swollen and become even swollen.

`a gal with a broken-heart.