What can i say?? I really very DOWN! Seriously, im Tired of everything le.. i tot now my life will be even betta BUT im wrong, totally wrong! What to do beside Crying?? I HATE to Cry, u know? i just cant Stop Crying!! If u put urself into my shoe, You'll feel Tired de, You cant Stop Crying cos Everything Everything have make u so Tired.. And u are Losing all a Faith n Trust! You think i Love to Cry?? Who Love to Cry?? Tell me?? Everyday, Everynight, gonna think of everything.. U know how hard mahs?? Do you know? Ya, u may think its just a small matter, n u may think im CRYBABY.. BUT IF U PUT URSELF INTO MY SHOE, THINK!!! Ya, i never tell u what happen But i just don wanna say.. U know, I BEG U, Please Hit my Head using something Hard or Kill me instead.. Please! So that i'll LOST my Memory, I'll become e NEW Kim!! There're so many things! if i have a choice i'll choose not to live in this world.. If i have another choice, i'll choose not to JOIN! i feel so BAD, i feel so Lousy, i feel so Useless, i feel so Stupid, i feel so Idoit.. I Just hate all e CONFLICT! Why liddat? i'll not join, and i don have to go competition and "Lian Lei" e team! Now its just a Game, Its just a Match, n yet i din Play well, What if during Competition?? i doesnt want it, i Feel like Quiting, seriously.. i doesnt wan to "Lian Lei" e team! Sorry, Iris! But i think i gonna End it just liddat.. U may think that im stubburn But for e whole Team Good, Let me make this desicion..

And, Im Losing ALL e FAITH n TRUST.. Everything has Gone, has Gone, I cant find it back, No way i can find it back.. Where're u? Everytime i told myself that You're There! But e More i have e Faith e more im losing e Trust in You.. You say in Your words that You will never Forsake anyone and You're always there! But Where're You?? I really Need You, PLease do not leave me alone! You're all i Want! BUT WHERE ARE YOU? Why u Hide Your Face, Why don u Take me to a Place Where i can see You Face to Face?? I tot that If i know You, My Life will be betta BUT im wrong again! I tot that i'll Change to a Cheerful Kim.. But Im Wrong again n again! "tot"?? i "tot" But it'll never be real! WHY?? Your Embrace? Your Presence? Your Word? Your Understand? Your Helper! Where?? i really dono what to say le, Just feeling very Down, that it! No one will Ever Care, No one!!